Summer doesn't Last Forever

As I sat by the window, looking outside.. people around with smiles on their faces. children outside playing skateboard and hopscotch. The summer heat was unbearable yet those who desire to be with the most important people in their lives, can bare it all. The butterflies were flying around , flowers blooming, and outside, was the perfect scenery..but my mood didn't match one bit. An outsider would look upon the scene as a typical summer day. But from my perspective, all I can see is joy..oh how I envy them, how can they be so effortlessly happy? whilist I, have done each and every single thing in my desires to be happy yet, where I am now, I can't even feel an ounce of joy. Maybe..just maybe its their unselfishness which draws joy and warmth to their lives? their secret, I'll never know..

Every lonely person have his own story, Not to be judged, nor pitied.. but to be loved..Now let me tell you my story..how funny that it all started in a summer day and look where I am now? a sad, lonely, summer day

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"Brittany!! come down here!!" my mom called out

"yes mother, I am here." 7-year old Bri skipped down the stairs of their mansion

"I would like you to meet Jared I'm sure you two will become great friends" typical mom said

"eeeewwww cooties!!"

"I do not have!!" young Brianna retorted

"oh yes you do!!"

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And that was when It started, a late, summer afternoon, me and Jared did become fast friends and we chased each other the whole day. But of course, things changed. When we were 16, I was the typical, rich nerd but no one dares lay a finger on me, Jared would always be my knight in shining armor as a typical Jock, everyone feared him

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"hey nerdy!!" Jackson threw his books at Brittany resulting her to fall

"do my homework then you'll be worth something!!" Peter said

poor Brittany could do nothing but whimper

"What is happening here?!?!" A masculine voice roared

the poor boys scattered and feared for their lives

"you okay Bri?"

"yeah..thanks Jared"

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Jared saved me from any bullying and made sur I was always safe. of course, as teens, I had my first crush, the cliche thing is, Jared happened to be him. But you could say he grew up too fast and started dating other girls..one of them is my closest cousin who knew very well how I liked him. Sasha

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ouch..is this what heartbreak feels like?

Brianna thought as she watched Sasha strode in hand in hand with Jared

Her heart crushed more when she was bullied by other girls while Jared stood there, locking lips with her very own flesh and blood well..not technically

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Being the heartbroken girl I was, I decided to change..money was never an issue so as another cliche thing, i had a makeover..oh and believe it or not, it only drew out the worst in me..I trued to become like the cheerleaders full of confidence with every step but it only resulted to an arguement with my best friend

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"What happened to you Bri?" Jared asked tears streaming down his face

"You were supposed to be my best friend!! what happened?"

"I-I don't know God Jared!!" Bri sobbed

"You really threatened Sasha? I thought you were better than that!! she was and the only girl I did ever love!! mom is dead!!who else do I have!!?!?"

me...Jared me.. Bri thought

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And that same day, I killed my best friend..

he was on his way to Sasha's to apologize and explain when sasha said she never wanted to hear from him ever again. Jared went to a bar, drank, and drove, and as most cliche things go like,he got into an accident, and wasn't able to survive..

that memory scarred me for life..The last time I ever did saw his face, was full of tears, tears of anger and dissapointment. And up to this day,I wondered, what if I Wasn't selfish?what if .. I never did those things for my own reasons? then Jared would still be alive..And now look at me, by the window, Once wished Jared would look at me the same way I look at him but now, All I'm wishing for with all my might is to see his face smile at me again..

Life is a journey

Not a success to conquer

Not a game to play

And is not supposed to be wasted by selfishness

But we can't help

but make mistakes

But we should always

keep in mind

That love

May destroy

Or may give you happiness

and Not everything you wish for

will be served upon your feet

cause no Diamonds

no jewlels

No money

can replace

a life

took away

by Love..

so there it goes, such a pity I realized these things late...

then jared would still have neen alive

enjoying this bright summer day

With me

But

Summer Doesn't last Forever now does it?