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fifth entry

july 1

dear ashton,

i meet your mom today. and she asked me why i'm not visiting you anymore
to be honest i ask myself the same thing. i don't know why i stop visiting you

maybe i just want to see you smile at me, like you always did
maybe i stop visiting you because i know that you won't smile at me anymore
you won't even looking at me. 

anyway, your mom invite me to come dinner with your family

i don't know i should say yes or not
because i know you won't be there
you won't be sitting next to me, or in front of me
you won't be greeting me or making me laugh like you always did
you won't be there

i miss you so much, ashton
do you miss me too?

love,
antonia

double update bc ily guys