I'm Ready To Let Go|| Yoongi x Reader

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A/N: Italics could also be flashbacks 😅
but also still their thoughts
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"Yoongi stop this think about the people around you, think about me"

"Why do you still care? Just leave me be if I want to show up to MY home at 3 in the morning then I will"

"since when was this YOUR house?! It's OUR house and for you to show up reeking of alcohol this late is just getting too much!"

"If it's getting too much then leave."
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That was the last time we spoke in person maybe about 2 weeks ago. Of course, I didn't leave I couldn't just leave. He hasn't changed I used to text him every day but he just leaves mine on reading.

"Aish Y/N don't worry I'll knock some sense to him what he is doing isn't right," Jin said to me. "I miss him he is barely home and he can get into so much problems being out so much" "I know I'll use that as an excuse to make him stop going out so much, I need to leave for vocal practice" "oh ok thanks for talking with me" "whenever you need someone don't forget I'm always here. Bye!" He smiled at me. "Byee" I gave him a warm-hearted smile.

I later went home and saw this ad on traveling to Japan it brought back a few memories.

"Y/N are you really going to South Korea"
"Yes Mina, I am"
"Are you not going to miss Japan? What if you run into your father? What if-"
"Mina don't worry I'll be fine I'll be in Seoul last time I heard my father is in Busan"
"What about me?"
"I promise I'll be back I'll visit. I'll call and text you every day"
"Is this for your Mother or Yoongi?"
"You know it's for my mother. Yes, I'll be with Yoongi but my mother is ill. I know she has not been the best mother sending me to Japan to live with my grandparents but she is still my mother. She must have had her reasons" I don't know if I was telling that to Mina or to myself.
"Please be careful Y/N you are my best friend I consider you family please don't forget me"
"Mina don't say that you know even if I tried I couldn't forget you" she wiped a tear off her cheek and gave me a warm chuckle. "Now Mina don't forget to take your pills every day I'll be texting and reminding you, If I could I would bring you with me but sadly it would be dangerous for you so you need to be careful"
"Hey! I'm older than you by a year I can take care of myself perfectly fine"
"Says the girl who was making ramen noodles and forgets to put in the water"
"That was one time! Or maybe it happened twice. Aaaa doesn't matter! I've grown"
"It happened this morning Mina" we both started laughing. If I knew that was the last time I'd hear her laugh I would've savored that moment more.

The door opening made me jump out of my memories. Surprisingly Yoongi showed up. Not drunk and early.
"Hi Y/N"
"Hey, dinner is on the stove I didn't serve you any food and I don't know if there's enough. I didn't expect you here"
"I didn't just come here to eat I came here to talk to you"
"Ok well, what?!"
"Why are you telling people about our problems? Jin has been bugging me all day and says I've neglected you"
"Well he isn't wrong and I'm not telling people our problems I've told one person and that's Jin."
"Ohh you've been hanging out with Jin a lot lately"
"Yes, I have since your never around who do you expect me to talk to?!"
My phone buzzed
"Who's texting you?!"
"I don't know". He grabbed my phone

Handsome😍: hey Y/N you look pretty in the picture you posted you've been working hard take a break let's go eat out somewhere

"So I leave for a while and you replace me?!"
"What?!! Of course not" you grabbed your phone back it was a message from Jin you had him as "Handsome😍". "That's Jin!"
"Oh, you expect me to believe that you bitch?!"
"Well, I'm not going to go on my knees and beg for you to believe me! You should know me by now I would never cheat on you!" I blinked away the tears that were threatening to fall. I can't believe he would seriously think I would cheat on him after everything?! I'm not dealing with this. If he chooses to believe the worst of me then so be it. I left, I ran out the door. I don't know what I expected, to successfully walk away?! Not with Min Yoongi

He grabbed my wrist and dragged me back in the house.

"Why would you walk away we weren't done speaking?!"
"If you choose to think the worst of me then so be it! I mean seriously you really thought I was-" he didn't let me finish and just kissed me roughly and bit my bottom lip hard making me bleed. I roughly pushed him away from me"WHAT THE HELL?! YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST FIX THINGS BY KISSING ME?!". I started to feel the blood dripping from my lip "Do you really hate me?" Tears started falling from my eyes uncontrollably. "No Y/N I-" "stop! I can't deal with this now, not this week. I'm sick and tired of this! I'm not some dog who's just going to wait for you and obey every word you say. You should've trusted me" I ran upstairs to m- our room and cried myself to sleep. Wouldn't be the first time, Y/N your so stupid just leave already! I had no idea why I stayed if it was because I don't have any place to go or because through everything I still loved him.

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You were in such a deep sleep you didn't even realize that Yoongi had come, slept next to you and hugged you tightly.

Yoongi's POV

I'm so sorry Y/N. Every day I'm hurting you more and more. I know you've already apologized for what happened and it's not your fault. I still and will always love you. It's just I can't be kind and tell you everything is ok without feeling guilty. What happened was my fault I'm so sorry you lost Mina because of me I can't help but feel guilty when I look at you trying to live your life and move on from what happened.

I'll make it up to you. I'm sorry for the past 5 years of your life have been just me lying. I felt a tear drop from my cheek. Please forgive me when one day you find out...