How To Date A Celebrity

Chapter 4

It was 7pm and I had just stepped into the bath. I started thinking about the long day I had had.

After the freaking out and crying we had shopped for a bit and then had headed to Chipotle for a bite.
I was home now and I was TIRED.
I turned the shower on and thought about him. How I wish I could just have a cup of anything with him. I don't care if it is coffee or tea or a frappuccino even water. I just want to talk to him. Just talk. I know I'm not at all special compared it anyone in the Mendes army. I'm just a nobody but hey I love him too.
I really want to be happy for him no matter who he ends up with but I find it hard. Really hard. I know if we're supporters we should support him in this category too but................ I need closure. Maybe we might even end up being best friends. Or friends.

Thinking about all this made me think "how bout making a plan. A plan too meet him."

This thought of mine was what started it all.

I turned the AC on and sat down on my chair. I had changed into come Pj's and had turned my table light and night light on.
I opened my dairy and turned the pages until I reached a fresh page. I opened my blue gel pen and bit the end of the pen trying to figure out where to start.
This is what I ends up writing

How to Date Shawn Mendes

1. Finish school. That would be the year 2023. Month - april. My age then would be 17. His age would be 23.

2. Go to college either in US or Canada. ( I really like Canada BTW)

3. Go to Shawns concert
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After writing down these 20 steps I sat back and took in a deep breath. "would this work?? Could it work?? Maybe. Is he worth my life??"

You might ask me why not reveal all the 20 steps but ofc I'm not gonna. It has to be me.
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I opened my phone because I heard it 'ping ' a couple of times. And guess what Shawn and Camillas new song video was out. Now don't get me wrong I like Camilla. But it's her friendship with shawn that gets me all worked up and jealous. I need help that's true. I need Shawn. I know that if you love somebody as much as I love Shawn we'd support them in everything that they do. But some times I find it hard.

As I sat at my desk watching their music video I turned green with jealousy. I know I shouldn't butas I said before its hard to not be. Especially with all those intimate scenes in the video. Even though I know it's just a video and not treal life I get upset. It's not as if he's only mine, it's not as if we'll ever be exclusive but why God did you give me him if I'll never be his.

I wanna be the reason for his smile.
I wanna be the reason for him to wake up every morning.

Thank you for reading and please be sure to vote if you like this. And for all the people out there shipping Shawn and camilla please aware that Camilla is currently in a relationship.