the Silk

Its my 26th birthday, time to grow up I guess. I move into my new house tomorrow my first home , I have my boxes packed and my bed is already there.
I wake up , chills on the back of my neck " I'm so nervous " I feel as if the house is drawing me in devouring my soul. I look out the window as I see the moving truck pull up with two very tall men in striped uniforms. it's a drippy day but the smell of fresh rain hits me.
As I pull up into the gravel drive way I can see the windows glisten to the light of the sky. I wave goodbye to the two tall men and hang my car keys up by the door , "it's just me myself and I in this big old house , maybe it's time for a dog " I say to myself as I go up the stairs to my room , the hallway behind me is dark and creeky as I close my bedroom door. A sudden gust of wind flows upon my room. I lay in my bed as I fluff the pillow to lay my head on I feel , as if something was watching me so, I pulled the blanket tight over my shoulder and closed my eyes . suddenly I wake up but im not in my bed anymore I'm sitting in a pool of black water in the middle of a field. I look up as I see this fair looking man brushing over the leaves of an apple tree with his smooth looking hands. I come out of the water but im no longer in my clothes, I'm standing in a long white dress with beading up and down my chest. I walk over to the man he has eyes the color of the sea and hair that had never ending brown curls , he wore a white outfit with blue intricate beading. "Hello ?" I reach out for his had, he looks to my feet than slowly, to my face stoping  along the way. "Well hello , my darling Cordelia" I look to him with confusion , "how .. Do you know my name"?.  He smiles " ohh Cordelia stop playing tricks with me darling " I take a step back .  he pulls me in embracing me gently, putting one hand on my very lower back . "who are you , and how do you know my name ?" . I look into his eyes "Cordelia don't be so silly " . he pushes me under the black water holding me down as I get deeper it turns to a bed of black silk.  he walks into the room "Hello my sweet rose" he softly runs one of his soft hands up my leg to my lips , and  traces them .  I pull my face away as I start to say something he puts his hand over my mouth. The room went quiet as he whispered " you've been acting rather strange today .. Darling". His voice sounded to evil when he said that , he slowly starts to push his fingers between my thighs. The room goes white just as he started to stick his fingers in me . the once black silk is white , I realize I'm back in my bedroom "I'm awake now". I roll over and rub my eyes as I hear the birds sing outside my window. What a dream this house definitely has a weird vibe. I head to my moms house as I think about the dream over and over almost like I'm in a coma of thoughts. Its getting late as I pull into my drive way my first night completely alone .. No men in stripes . I make myself a bowl of spaghetti and eat silently in my dining room. The house creeked in the wind as i got ready for bed , as I pulled over the blanket so I could get in bed the gust of wind happened again. I lay down and closed my eyes , what if I have that dream again .. What's gonna happen ?.
Suddenly I'm awake , in the white room again. The sheets seemed softer and this time I'm clothed in a silk wrap . the man comes to me .  "who are you?" I ask him , he grins " my name is Malcolm " . he pears into my eyes and softly smiles. His eyes mesmerized me as if I was under a spell . he slowly leans in and kisses me as I open my eyes we were in a different place .  we were in a room full of red roses as i danced upon rose petals. But as I spun all could see was burning and ash falling, as if I was dancing in hell. My feet began to burn as the petals turn to thorns and begin to tare at my feet .  the blood from my feet turn to water as I stand on a cliff above the Ocean . I look down and I see me dead my white silk rap flowing in the water. How could that be, I'm standing right here . i feel a soft breeze and all of a sudden I'm awake. I open my eyes softly as the sun rays reach across my room .  I don't want to leave my bed , is it bad that I like Malcolm? I feel myself want to drift back to sleep so, I let myself. I'm still looking into the water at myself. " Malcolm?" I look around hoping to see his ocean eyes gazing at me . than I feel a warm hand come to my cheek " Hello, Cordelia" I blush as I look into his eyes " how can I stay with you?" I ask him. He looks at me "you can't " than he softly pushes me into the water and right before I hit the water I wake up. I'm in a cold sweat and well I'm also a little wet.. I just want to be in his arms . 
it's been two weeks since ive seen Malcolm, I cut myself last night in hopes to see him . as I walk up the stairs to sleep I hear a Creek  and then the wind went through my room. As I'm laying down i close my eyes . suddenly I wake up and I'm standing at the top of a deep hole made of gold. Malcolm whispers " this is the only way you can be with me " I shiver with suprise .  I look down the hole " what is this ?" Malcolm chuckles "it's the tunnel to shamayim, witch is haven " I look at him .  I feel his grip tighten " you must jump into there and fall upon the bed of silk that will take your soul and you will become another line of silk in the bed and become a guardian like me ".  I gaze at him with fear but some how I trust him , deep down I want to just let go and join him forever. I look at him briefly as I let go of him slipping into the tunnel the fall was long . I look around there was writing it said ~ each silk is a life that has been  lost in a dream ~  I close my eyes as I softly fall into the bed of silk . I begin seeing all the dreams in the threads of silk all the people. tears run down my face "so much suffering " Suddenly it goes dark as I float up all the way back into Malcolms arms. Tears still
rolling down my face " I saw so many peoples dreams.."  Malcolm looks at me softly " I know.. That's why I didn't want you to do it .." He kisses my hands gently. This time I won't be waking up, I look around and I feel different. The sky seemed to sparkle and the sun felt so soft. Malcolm slowly starts to kiss me as he takes me to a bed and slowly lays me down on the silk . I feel him pull apart the buttons on my dress , I'm now naked laying in the silk he looks at me with grace. I feel so safe in his presence , his soft skin against mine .  His hands search each soft curve of my body, as he kisses me . I start to feel him come between my thighs "may I ?" He whispers to me I nod softly. I close my eyes as he slowly slides into me, I'm so wet. I bite my lip as he thrust, he softly brushes my face with his hand then gently to my chest. The silk slides along my body as we share each other's love. He begins to get deeper , kissing my lips gently. Suddenly I'm standing in a black dress looking at my dead body in a casket, "im dead in real life"..? I go back to Malcolm and I tell him to stop "am I dead in real life?" He looks at me " yes , when you fall into the silk you die in your sleep and if u die in a dream you become a gairdian you help people find the tunnel to shamayim so they can live forever in the dream state." I look at him with shock , " why .. Didn't u tell me that, how do I know when to show someone?"  He looks at me " you'll know just trust me please". He softly kisses my forhead and smiles at me. Well I guess I'm stuck here .. Now it really is time to grow up , "I'll stay here with Malcolm ... Forever and never see my house again. Just remember that what may look sweet and harmless could cost you your life .   
~the end~