UNFORGETTABLE SILENCE

L. *2*

Have you ever been captivated by a complete stranger, feeling like your on top the world then having that world crumble in such a way that it made you happy

They say dreams do come true but we always forget we have to wake up...
Seeing her for the first time came as a surprise I was excited about what laid ahead. Having an angel just stumble on to your path and with those bright dark Caramel eyes she stared into my soul and i just had to stop her,this was just the start of L...
No matter how long I knew her I never actually knew her and to this day I wonder if the same angel suddenly switched place. It was fire works of emotions and with each word we spoke I adored her flaws more and even though she didn't admit it her scars were there for the world to see. But things went so fast and changed at the same rate, she had the world at her feet and she was tired of the world, she pleased my every desire but really desired finding herself. I was so lost in her that I didn't notice her... so focused on loving that I didn't even realize what was there to love.
Everyday was the same and she would always give me that look as if she wanted less but her words were saying more , I forced myself unto her, not physically but I did what everyone else did I didn't give her a choice because it felt "right" and as each day passed I went beyond where no other man had been I not only felt inside her but somewhat took her innocence as this was just the beginning of where we made love. Again not physically but I got just a glance of who she was and I was terrified if I'm going to be honest I didn't want that part, I didn't want to know she wasn't perfect and ultimately that was my downfall.
Walking down our road of arguments love friendship and everything in between was something you never quite get to experience in a lifetime, her presence was satisfying even when we argued and all I can remember was that sky blue dressed stained by all we did and that hair which she took so much pride in messed up without a care in the world and there was a silence the one that made me know it was over.... I always thought we would just bounce back like we always do but she knew better and I didn't want to accept her being right but she was. we were a ticking time bomb and she cut the red wire, I guess she was just braver than I am. Shes the type of person that if you tried to understand her you'd just end up broken in the process, she's that complex yet so simple. There is no best or worst part it was just my perspective of L. And all she was/is.
But somehow after everything was said and done, i knew her best but I don't think anyone will ever get to see that soul and so a wonder of the world will never be discovered. I still get nostalgia though of that face cladded with beauty, those lips succulent, those eyes a kaleidoscope of colours, that hair soft as feathers, that melanin skin of a queen, that pride like a lioness, those flaws as she was, that intelligence that baffled me, that heart filled with love, that soul looking to find herself. No matter what happens next I would probably do it all over again just to try and experience what is L. every perspective is different and I'm sure there will be many stories of her and the mark she left on everyone she knew but now that shes gone I don't know what to say because she did exactly what she's so good at and that's always being a mystery but she did much more this world seems a little less without her.