Losing her was just the start of all that was to come. I didn't feel whole anymore and love seemed like a story with a few missing chapters that just made everything feel incomplete, my mind torn between wanting that same feeling again and never feeling anything again but I needed it even if it meant killing me in the process, nothing else mattered and the people around me could see that I was changing. my sense of the world and what it was all came down to what I'd experienced in one person and going through everyday life everything seemed like an opportunity to get that feel again love and be loved.
A drug, one that had so many side effects and was almost impossible to stop, I can remember being happy and these memories are treasures, before everything ... Before rebelling against my family and a vendetta to just be free from the constraints of parents and not being able to make my own decisions but you never truly realize they're just trying to save you from the darkness of the world, within that darkness though is light so illuminating you forget about ever being in darkness... With freedom there's a certain euphoria that cannot be explained but only felt, it all comes at a price with risks many are too afraid to take.
I always ask myself why wasn't the best of both worlds possible why did I have to lose everything to gain everything or maybe I'm just selfish in wanting more wanting to feel alive just for a moment but that transcended into an obsession.
Meeting T after it felt like i had all that I was searching for, the nights where we couldn't get enough of each other .. Feeling her hands caress my body as I slowly went deeper in her paradise, just having the stars in her eyes as we both kept staring and I just couldn't believe I'd found something so different that was so satisfying ...with a insatiable desire for her.
Everything was still in shambles but just knowing I'd come home to her made it okay, the world didn't seem so scary anymore and love felt good again ... My thoughts were all about her which was bad but I liked it, I liked not having to worry but in a weird way I was always worrying about her. Just the thought of knowing I could lose her brought me to my knees.
I can't remember the exact moment it clicked but deep down I knew she had me wrapped around her fingers and I couldn't stop it, I couldn't stop what came next...
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Puisifollows the mind of a teen (J) and his challenges with adolescence, love, family and overall his up bringing which ultimately led to who he is. with love his Achilles heel a mind ready to change the world and a soul filled with sweet melodies which...
