I GREW UP WITH NO FATHER. ITS REALLY HARD ONCE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT HES NOT WITH YOU AND MIGHT NEVER BE.
A COMPLETE STRANGER COMES INTO YOUR LIFE AND YOU SEE YOURSELF HATING HIM ALREADY BUT YOUR MOM LIKES HIM ALOT, IN OTHER WORDS SHE "LOVES" HIM.
NOW PUT YOURSELF IN MY SHOES.......YOU WANT YOUR MOM TO BE HAPPY BUT YOU DONT WANT TO LIVE MISERABLY YOU WHOLE LIFE. YOUR MOM DID ALOT FOR YOU AND NOW YOU WANT HER TO BE HAPPY BUT AT ONE POINT YOU ARE JUST TIRED OF CRYING YOURSELF TO SLEEP AND YOU JUST DONT WANT TO DO THAT ANYMORE. IT GETS TIRING UP TO THE POINT WHERE YOU THINK,
"DO I EVEN MATTER IN THIS WORLD"?
"HAVE I IMPACTED OR HELPED ANYONE MAKE THEIR LIFE BETTER"?
AND THEN SUDDENLY YOU REMEMBER THAT TO YOU THE ONLY REASON TO STILL BE ON THIS WORLD IS TO MEET HIM. YOUR FATHER. THE OTHER HALF THAT TOOK TO CREATE YOU. BUT THE HALF THAT DIDNT OR AT LEAST YOU THINK DIDNT MAKE AN EFFORT TO STAY IN YOUR LIFE, TO RAISE YOU, TO TEACH YOU HIS BELIEFS, TO GIVE YOU THAT FATHER-DAUGHTER FEELING THAT A DAUGHTER NEEDS. YOU THE DAUGHTER JUST COME TO THE POINT WHERE ITS ALL OVER. BUT THEN YOU THINK .................IF I LEAVE THIS WORLD I WILL BE HURTING SO MANY PEOPLE I LOVE AND I CARE FOR.. THAT I JUST DONT WANT TO HURT. NOW IS THE POINT WHEN YOU JUST SAY WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO.!
DO I STAY AND MAKE OTHER PEOPLE HAPPY OR DO I LEAVE AND MAKE MYSELF HAPPY ?????????????????????
