never goodbye

Chapter 6

"Tom wait." I heard Scarlett say as she caught up to me. I kept walking. She grabbed my arm. "What is up with you? I know when I'm being given the cold shoulder. You've been ignoring me all day."

I stopped and looked at the ground. "Nothing."

She let go of my arm "you must really think I'm stupid or something."

I kept walking "it doesn't matter."

She followed "it doesn't matter that you think I'm stupid or it doesn't matter that something is obviously wrong." 

Why did she have to be so confusing. 

"Tom, are you mad at me?"

I stopped again. I was angry but not more than I was hurt. I turned around and looked her straight in the eyes. Her beautiful green eyes. No, I was angry. 

"What did you tell Luke?"

She looked at me confused.

"Luke? I haven't talked to him. Why?"

"So how does he know that my dad is with someone else? Huh? you were the only one who was with me."

"are you serious? Tom, do you really think I would tell someone that and of all of people, Luke"

"I don't know Scarlett. I mean I don't really know you."

She looked hurt and I suddenly regretted it. 

"I guess your right. You don't really know me do you? Apparently I'm a backstabber who doesn't care about people." 

"I didn't mean—"

"No Thomas, I know you didn't mean it but it still hurts. It really does. You know Tom, maybe you should start focusing on learning how to trust people. Not everyone is out to get you."

And with that she pushed past me. I stood there looking at her. "I don't care." I told myself but i didn't believe it. I walked the rest of the way home feeling confused. Mom wasnt home yet so i made a grilled cheese and watched some tv. Maybe it was the off brand cheese mom had brought or the boring the shows were but something didnt feel right and i couldnt exactly pinpoint what it was exactly. I was mad at my dad and i was hurt by scarlet. I was honestly embarrassed that luke and probably the whole school knew about my dad and what's her name, wilma, and sometimes i was worried about mom. All these emotions ran through me. I laid my head back on the couch. Now I was getting a headache. There was tylanol in the cabinet but i didnt feel like getting it. I sighed and finished clicking through the channels until mom got home. she hung her coat up and sunk into the couch next to me. she took a long deep sigh.

"Ive been waiting to do this all day." 

I nodded 

"What wrong?"

"nothing."

"a little more detail please." She said picking up the remote 

"Its just a lot going on I guess."

"still trying to take everything in, huh?"

I nodded 

"you know its not wrong if you feel hurt or mad about dad not telling you, you know. I would feel the same way."

"I just don't understand him I guess. I mean would it have been so hard for him to tell me?"

"i don't know why he didn't tell you but men are like that sometime. Secretive you know."