Look at the stars, look how they shine for you ... And every thing you do, just listening to yellow by cold play always reminded me of what a celestial beauty she was... The way she smiled that first summer night gave me chills as if I'd needed any more reasons to love her, but with these nights came the troubles of our past and we both had demons to fight so much so that it changed the way our stars aligned.
You never truly see how much your past makes you who you are and how much a single memory conjured can affect every decision onward, sometimes I think we just wanted to relive the good times with a different person and ultimately there was love but shadowed by wanting the same experience someone else gave. It never really made sense as to how or why but for t there was this illusion created one that after awhile its just a mess you can't fix.
She had scars figuratively and literally, we both had been through the "silence" and were too broken soul's who lost our way to love, I was so fixated on not losing her that all I did was present perfection even when it wasn't there ...and that in some ways was the beginning of the end and all she wanted was just the same type of love and I couldn't give her that, that sweet type of torture is how I'd describe it knowing that she could lose me to another person at any moment but still having me and I couldn't give her that, I had an affinity for broken souls at this point but she was something else something I couldn't handle ... Every time she told me someone was at her room door I feared the unspeakable would happen again , I couldn't do a thing so weak and fragile to all that was happening I felt less than a man... I couldn't stop the hurt she went through I couldn't stop what was about to happen, I couldn't stop her innocence being taken... I let it happen, the one person in the world that was to protect her and give her hope , the one person that made her believe in love and the possibility of long term happiness and I was too weak and no matter how much love I gave it didn't matter she didn't need love she needed a voice and I was still stuck in silence. with all she went through I was amazed that she could smile and it shined so bright and that was my summer night light.
YOU ARE READING
UNFORGETTABLE SILENCE
Poetryfollows the mind of a teen (J) and his challenges with adolescence, love, family and overall his up bringing which ultimately led to who he is. with love his Achilles heel a mind ready to change the world and a soul filled with sweet melodies which...
