Skin Deep

2.

" My beautiful is my mind"

Day 2 since I left

My stuff finally arrived and, I had boxes every where , my bed was already put up already but, I have been unpacking all day , I need a break .

I sit on the ground looking at the view of the city , staring at the view of the night sky and lights of the city , I began to think.

I start work tomorrow , I'm not nervous but, I just want everything to well and, by well I mean perfect.

looking at my reflection through the large glass" your not that pretty for that" words played back in my head from harsh words of that mans mouth.

I never cared what people thought but, sometime it stings. Being a women especially a women of color you don't have many people wanting to call you beautiful , society put you in this box and , It's the worst one ever. I don't want to be just pretty , I want to be different from that. I believed my beautiful was my mind.

Trying to not think about it , I get up from the floor and make my way to my bedroom , Looking at my dresser I touch my necklace . The necklace my mom gave me when I was five years old and, I never part with it. Speaking of my mom I did not get to talk to her today.

Walking over to my night stand to grab my phone and dial her number . I always talk to my mom before I go to bed , she has the best advice and , is amazing when it comes to helping me with my nerves.

Dialing her number , I let It ring for a good 2 minutes before hanging. She must be busy , I thought.

I went over to my bed and, got under the covers. I was honestly scared to be in this big apartment by myself , I always had my parents and , now it was just me. I tried to sleep faster because, I know if I stay up another minute I would over think everything and, My worst enemy would have me going back to Texas.

8: 00 am

The alarm goes off and, so it begins.

I move the covers from my body to see the sun gleaming. Walking to the bathroom to brush my teeth and, shower.

Thank god for nice teeth I laugh to myself while brushing my teeth.

Getting out the shower making my way to my closet. 

Going through my clothes to see a red leather jacket and black button with black ripped jeans and heels.

Cute. I thought

getting dressed and putting my kinky curls in a ponytail only to leave some in the front hanging , hearing my phone to see T trying to facetime me , " Really T when I'm trying to get glammed" I say out loud but , still answering " hey sis, ready for your first day? going to train like a real new Yorker?' he says laughing knowing I will take a cab because, I will get lost. I didn't have time to "explore" I was just tired and , ready to get home .

" very funny T , lets not forget how many times you get lost in that big ass head of yours" I say and , his smile quickly fades.

my comebacks are usually stronger than his and, hates it so he always tries to stay ahead of me knowing he can't.

" had breakfast?" he ask trying to change the humiliation in the room .

" no there is a Donkin Donuts across the street, I'll just pick up a bagel on the way to work" I say to him and he nods.

" honestly we miss you over here, dad even made your favorite blueberry pancakes" he says laughing and , I smile.

" I tried to call mom last night and , she did not answer is she ok?" I ask and, Thomas's smile kind of fades again but, this time it was serious.

" what?" I say smiling a little to try to keep the energy back.

"nothing, she was just sleeping I think" he says smiling back.

that's weird mom never , slept before calling me . I laughed it off and it didn't make it a thing because, I don't need anymore anxiety today.

"I'm getting to leave , I'll call you on my lunch break" I say to him while grabbing my bag and making my way to the door.

"ok love you mads, have a good day and, try to smile ok?" he says aka I won't be doing that .

"ok I'll think about it, bye" I say and laughs and hangs up.

Walking to Dunkin Donuts their was kind of a long line and, I had no time. Guess no breakfast for me .

I ran to grab a cab , watching multiple trying to get one cab, I rushed inside . I may have pissed some people off but, gotta be quicker than that , I joked to myself .

Looking out the window as the driver pass the city, I gave the driver the address I was going to. People in this city act like maniacs fighting to get on the bus. It is very loud and fast. I wasn't prepared for this but, I'm here now so might as well do it right?

After a 15 minute drive , I finally reach the huge building people were working into "Prize Magazine" one of the biggest magazines in the world. Everyone wants to work here if their an aspiring writing or into fashion. So many departments.

Getting out the cab while giving the driver the money.

'woah' Building is huge as I walked in through the doors, I see a coffee and breakfast station. I had no time I had to go to the office with all the Interns.

Even though I'm their "top writer" I'm the new girl in town and, I have to be in the office where introductions go on. I'm not an intern but, I have to be in a room with them.

I walk into a large elevator and the floor 10 , the elevator shot up. The doors opens and a group of women were laughing and, talking until they saw me , they looked at each other and back at me in shock???

I walk out in confusion and into the office where I see people staring at me like I have an ass on my forehead.

I feel a women come by my side with red hair, she was Asian and a little bubbley " their staring because , your beautiful" she says and I turn and smirked .

" that seems stupid" I say .

" well people here are always want to see a new face especially when their face is pretty, its like when you've seen everyone's face too much and , you need to see new ones because, the one's are boring now" she says laughing to herself .

She's adorable "Janis Lee" she says with her hand out for me to shake it " Madison Fletcher" I say grabbing it back and she look kind of shocked.

" oh Madison, what a Coincidence I was supposed to show you to Mr. Chadwell's conference room with interns and new employees , he always makes his speeches to his employees to make us with feel special , he's super cool"  She says and I nod and follow her to a large door.

She opens it and , I see a long table with water and other "new workers" they all stare at me as I sit , a large mans back is turned .

"welcome Ms. Fletcher , we were waiting to get started " His deep voice sounds familiar .

He turns around and , I could not believe my eyes .

It was him , dip shit, he had a sly smile on his face like he knew he got me and , at that point I was shook and , felt played and stupid.

Guess who may not have a job. Time to plan my trip back to Texas.