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sixteen

Jordyn

I nodded and looked at him to proceed talking. I was playing with my hands nervous as hell. My heart was beating so fast, scared that he's not going to say what I want to hear.

He held my hands to stop me from concentrating to my hands. I felt so childish, why am I so childish in front of him? "I'm not going to make this long. I'm feeling you. And I know you like me too-"

I blushed. "I see Bash wasted no time telling you."

"Yeah... I wasn't gonna act on this feeling for obvious reasons by something about you just keeps fascinating me." He said making me grin. "I want us to vibe with each other and just see what happens. I want to be with you."

My eyes popped out a bit. I've never had a boyfriend do I want one now? Especially when I'm going to be focusing on my school work a lot to get in a good college. I like David a lot and i don't want to mess anything up with our friendship. "and I can see that freaks you out for some reason" he chuckled. "We won't be official until you're ready to be."

I smiled nodding. "Okay, but please don't play with me. I don't need girls coming up to me telling me what you're doing that's gonna break my heart."

"I told you, when I'm with someone. I'm with someone." He smiled and gave me a hug, which ended up with him lifting me up.

He was about to kiss me, but I panicked and moved away. "everyone must be waiting on us." I chuckled nervously.

He looked at me confused and I wished he wouldn't ask what. I was so nervous, he let it go and nodded. We walked outside together, he was smiling so hard, and I was too. "your cheeks must be hurting from all that smiling." I joked.

"look at you acting like I don't see all your giraffe lookin teeth." He retorted. I laughed and smacked him playfully. I folded my arms and walked faster. He hugged me from behind and kissed my cheek making me blush. "I'm only playing with you."

"look at you two being cosy." Bash smirked. I looked at my girls look at me like I won the lottery. They were so happy, their smiles looked so big they ended up looking so goofy. I laughed at them.

I felt nervous that I have to kiss him. My first kiss is going to be today I'm so nervous. What if I exchange too much saliva? Am I even supposed to exchange saliva? All my life watching movies of people kiss I didn't even think of about these questions. "you're okay?" He noticed my face.

"yeah... yes! "I faked a smile which he could see but luckily he didn't ask.
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After finally getting some alone time with the girls, I pulled them to Dani's room. They could see i was worried but they didn't know why.

"and then? You're supposed to be happy. First boyfriend, you're supposed to be all up on him now" Riah laughed.

"I can't kiss. He'll dump me, what am I supposed to do?" I panicked. They looked at me like I'm the most dramatic person there is. I kid you not, their annoyed faces made me feel bad.

"Kissing is natural, Jordyn. Just follow his lead" Bee said. I nodded.

"I promise you. You won't have the worst first kiss just relax and do it. You know what you should practice on the mirror. We've all done that at one point in our lives." Naiya suggested. The girls followed me to Dani's bathroom.

I was about to do it when we heard the door open I jumped off the counter and we all quickly walked out. David looked at us weird. "can i talk to you?"

"I'll be downstairs in a minute." I said. He nodded and walked out. He suspected something, I was just happy he didn't see anything I would be too embarrassed.

We went back to the mirror and I sat on the counter and tried to do it like the movies. "don't open your mouth that wide. You're not sucking dick" Mani laughed.

Riah laughed and pushed her off. Bee came to me, and held my hands. "you're just panicking boo. It's going to go well it's not rocket science. It's really easy, it comes naturally. You'll be okay."

"what if i kiss badly?" I thought out loud.

"Well looking at David? He looking like the type that'll just laugh at you and dumb you. Nobody wants a bad kisser that shit is disgusting. Remember that guy that-"

Bee cut Naiya off. "trying to comfort a panicking girl here."

"Oh yeah. Jordy you'll do fine. Stop stressing now go kiss that man before he gets back here again and thinks you're not actually happy about dating him." Naiya said.

I didn't feel like telling them we're not dating yet. "I'm panicking over a kiss. How dramatic can a person be?" I laughed.

Mani agreed. "you're on a another level of drama."  We all laughed. I was happy they were there to console me when I'm thinking too much into things and cheer me up. I got up and went to the door

"don't open your mouth too wide." Riah reminded me

"don't exchange siliva." Mani laughed

"you don't?" I joked but they thought I was serious.

Bee smacked her own face. "oh wow."

"it feels like I'm having the first kiss. The way I'm stressed out." Naiya said.

We all laughed, and I walked out. Downstairs David was talking with one of his friends, when he saw me, he walked out. David took my hand and sat me in one of the stools. "you're sure you okay?" He asked I just nodded. "I don't want you to pretend everything's okay when it's not. We gotta start on the right foot. Let me know when something's wrong and well go through it together."

Without thinking I just kissed me, luckily for me me immediately took the lead. I was following his lead and it was going so good. My heart was beating so fast and he was holding on to me. I was holding on to him like we never wanted to let go. We needed to relax so we finally broke the kiss off.

"Damn."

"Wow" we spoke at the same time.