Moira

Chapter One : The Madhouse

 I read once that it’s ok to show all your colors, but since the day I got here I have no colors left to show , except white , and you know what’s funny about it ? It’s that we used to consider black and red as colors of danger, problems, death all made by the devil .. But I swear to God you don’t know how devilish White is .. Let’s be honest it’s not easy to catch the peace color in a sinning position.. White is good at faking its truth as much as this nurse’s smile, she’s bringing me lunch and a cursed pill - I can’t stop appreciating the services in this place – I stared at her deeply like if  I’m staring into her soul , I wanted to make her scared but the look on her face gave me the sign that certainly there is no escape today , she’s going to force me to drink the medicine-which I’ve never taken- ..I had no choice this time I took it to my mouth put it under my tongue ,meanwhile , sha was trying to hand me the cup of water ..

In this place , nothing tastes the same , even water turns into a tree of thorns growing all the way down of my throat .. The nurse was done with me for today , she locked the room and left.

She left me drowning in my thoughts , it’s not like I have something else to do here .. But this time I had one idea stuck in my mind, and I had the feeling that it won’t leave me alone .. it’s my company from now on .. I want to set my dead soul free from this almost dead body , it’s making me laugh so hard , I’m laughing as loud as I can , it may seem like I’m screaming but trust me it’s a laugh , a laugh that made me feel a warm liquid leaving my emotionless eyes ..

Who am I lying to ? the truth is that I had never felt alive in my life , neither in this holly madhouse nor out of it , but I had two reasons that made me want to survive though I knew that I lot of parts are missing . Despite it all , I tried to live just as some separated pieces , not anymore, specially not after the unforgettable fact that one reason is the Why I’m here and the other one brought me here ..

I put my hand under my pillow and brought out a lot of pills, pills of three months, but unfortunately I couldn’t make the difference between them , I was wondering which one was the first, the one from the day my lovely mom left her only daughter in such a cold place with no remorse? Maybe it’s this one , no I guess this one is from the other day when the doctor said my mom will pay me a visit , I remember that he talked a lot he promised me that if I told them the answer they want I can go out ,they would set me free from this hell , but nobody know how much this place will seem as heaven to me If I accepted to live in a lie, I can’t live with the fact that she was gone ,because she can't do that to me, not without an appropriate goodbye .

 I can feel a cold liquid getting through my ears , it is no warm anymore . I gulped all the pills , I layed my body on my bed the only accessory in this room which seems like my actual coffin .. 

All I did in my last moments was meditating the white roof ,it was white and then nothing .

-We must get you out here . He said
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Guuuuys that was the first chapter, made with all my love..
Hope you really liked it..
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