THE VOICE OF MY SCARS

You'll Forget

you'll forget
you'll forget it all
gradually and entirely

Life isn't always a piece of cake, it's a perpetual myriad of highs and lows, miracles and losses and a countless twists and turns.

During the past years of my school life I learnt science, literature, algebra and so much more and I have no recollection of any of the things. I have no idea that how do we solve a square root or what is trigonometry, and what is the actual process of respiration.

It's a pity that i have spent years learning and revising but when I'm asked by my younger siblings to solve a mathematical equations or about science, I make excuses rather than explaining answers.

Many a time I question myself that why I can't reminisce what I'd learnt back in school but the other moment I shut these thoughts with this plausible excuse that I had learnt new things gradually and maybe that's the reason why I have forgot the previous.
These are the times when I believe that someday all the bad memories and dark times will also fade somehow. When I hit the rock bottom I was a mess. I wanted to hide myself from everything and everyone, I didn't wanted anyone to witness me at my worst, to watch me shatter, pieces by pieces.

So I isolated myself, cutting of all sorts of contacts with the people, I felt this choice would bring me peace, but this comfortable silence was so overrated. It made the voices in my head more louder and I grew more horrible.

During this low phase of my life, my mother constantly persuaded me to walk out to people as much as I can, to not conclude that this is the end but to endeavor that this could be the beginning or an opportunity to learn from the past wrong doings. Her advice made sense when things went overboard and I was debilitated to the extent where I couldn't take anymore of the constant hardships.

I reached out to people, finding conversible companions and I felt myself drifting away from the previous miseries, I witnessed ample felicity and met much more beautiful souls and most importantly,
"Life is never constant, what's happening now will change someday. If life can offer you unbearable pain than it can gift you happiness in the most extravagant way."