I've never been able to get rid of this word because I've never been anything more.
Not great, but not totally bad.
Somewhere in the middle.
It's weird though. Ever since I was a kid there has always been this weird emphasis on:
"Trying your best"
Although "your best" is subjective to one's respective capabilities and circumstances this encouragement often leads to a lot of unhealthy comparisons.
Depression inducing ones.
The type of comparisons that rob you of the ability to love yourself because you're not (her).
When adults say this, they often forget to emphasize the important part, your.
Children don't remember your because it was best that was emphasized.
It's not just the children who forget, but the parents do too.
Yet somehow parents still fail to see the reason why their child is diagnosed with depression and anxiety at 16.
Somehow society is surprised at the overwhelming spike of mental issues in today's youth.
Well, we're not surprised.
Because we were trained to believe that being ourselves wasn't good enough. It was whatever our parents saw as being the best. So, if that wasn't us we weren't good enough.
Some people are lucky and their parents' standards align completely with theirs. However, most aren't. Most don't get that luxury, because most are different from their parents.
There's this innate instinct in us that forces us to deviate from our parent's mentality.
We are designed to rebel.
This is something that occurs frequently.
It isn't something that just happens.
It isn't coincidental.
Our rebellion is us trying to be better than our parents.
Our rebellion is our attempt at your best.
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word vomit
ПоэзияA collection of depressing poetry I've written. Not all of them are good, but they're real and I think that matters.
