Why the fuck do you have the right to feel uncared for? Yeah I get it, you have depression, Anxiety, and maybe a few other things. Doesn't mean you're the only one? You are the only one that gets this much fucking attention though. I don't get it, how doyou feel uncared for when you are the one with all the attention, of people trying to help you, and give you a therapist, and give you the best fucking care you could ever ask for. Do you understand that I literally feel the same fucking way you do, and I don't get any of that. think about how much that fucking hurts? Have you thought? Well not fucking good enough, think more.You think I'm keeping you together..? But do you care if I'm still together? because I don't think anyone knows how slowly, and how fast I am falling apart. and someday I'm just gonna crash.
I really like you and you just fucking use me to feel loved don't you? All you do is hold my hand, and tell me you love me, but you don't mean it do you? When I tell you I love you I mean it. If I didn't mean it I wouldn't say it. but you just think it's some phrase don't you. You just want to feel like you have someone there. but you don't give a shit about them, but they care about you. I care about you, and I ask you what's wrong when you're upset, and I can even fucking tell you are upset. I cried all my make up off, nothing left, you've never seen me without make up but you ddn't seem to notice...and if you did, you didn't seem to care.
I asked you how you were today, and you replied with "Bleh" I asked what was wrong, but thank you for asking how I was, because that didn't matter I know, well honestly I'm fucking shit.
