Shameless

Wouldn’t it be so easy to lie like this, flushed in each other’s arms, not having to worry about anything anymore.  Because this is perfect, just like this, listening to each other breathe, pressed so close they can taste each other, whispering words that no one else can hear. Words like adore and beautiful. Words like love. What would they have to give, just to stay right here, safe while trading secrets, breaths, kisses? Sometimes when they’re like this, he thinks of running away with Niall, just steal a car, Louis’, Harry’s or Liam’s and just drive off into the night when no one’s awake to see and in the morning, everyone can wonder where they went. But he thinks of Niall’s dream, because he knows he can give up his own now and he can leave if that’s what he has to do. But Niall wouldn’t want that. Zayn wishes he never has to leave Niall, be Niall’s  dream, and perhaps be his whole life, wishes he had the guts to be shameless and show the world that. Maybe someday they’ll both have the guts to show the world who has who. That Zayn has Niall and Niall has Zayn. And someday they won’t care what other people think because who’s the media, the management, the world to say no? Zayn thinks maybe one day, when they’re out of their deal and no longer have a label to uphold, when he and his four band mates go their separate ways, he will find Niall again and he’ll buy a house somewhere far, somewhere like Canada or even somewhere in Asia, where he and Niall can disappear together and live nameless but happy, away from those who think they can say no. Or maybe they’ll blow up on the news, be the royalties of the tabloids and become more famous than they ever were as the ones who ignored the boundaries. But wherever it may be, whatever the world decides to send their way, Niall knows he’ll go with Zayn because he trusts Zayn, trusts him always, that he’ll take care of him and protect him. And Niall needs Zayn to be there when he needs him, be there in the morning. Be there forever. And of course, Zayn promises “I will be” But right now, while they still can’t do all those things, the only thing Niall can promise in return is love him.