school sucks I wish I was done with it. It never really interested me but since my parents wants what's best for me which means a good eduction a degree and a good salary I have to go through it. I'm not a bad student though in fact I have pretty good grads but still I hate going to school.
I'm in my last year of high school next year I surely will go to some prestigious university but still I don't rally want to go to college. My biggest dream is to become a singer or a song writer but I know my parents will never let me follow that kind of path they think it's too risky.
My mom always used to tell me that we have passions but as human beings we also have obligations having a job,family and all is our purpose. she's a christian I respect her point of views but I completely disagree with her. Music is a passion for me I like writing songs and sometimes I just wish my parent would let me pursue my dreams.
I'm kind of a loner at school but it's surely is by choice i'm not really the social type but still I have a few friends and they completely understand me that's what I like about them they are the best. I've known yugyeom and Mark my entire life and they're almost like family to me we practically grew up together.
At school ,people think I'm intimidating most of the students are scared to approche me, yugyeom always says that I have a scary look, a very handsome but super intimidating scary look. For some reason I'm very popular with girls even when I act cold they still try to approche me, I often found love letters in my locker which is kind of annoying sometimes since I'm not interested in any of them. I don't know why but a lot people think I'm attractive i don't understand which part of me is, for me I'm just a regular looking guy .
There's this guy at my school who got me completely shook the first time I saw him. For me he is what I consider being attractive and he's kind of one of the reasons why I found out that I might be interested in guy. I don't know if I'm gay but since I saw him I couldn't stop thinking about his gorgeous face, i even dreamt about him. I wish i could be close to him but I don't really know how to approche him. I know with my personality that it won't be easy for me to do so, i sometimes get misinterpreted by people when I talk to them. it's not that I'm rude but I don't really know how to interact with other you could say that I'm shy I don't know
That handsome guy name is Jackson everybody know who he is. From what I've heard he's very loud , super kind and very sociable it's sad to say but I realized our personality don't match at all. I think it will be almost impossible for us to get alone. even if I love his looks he's very loud and energetic and I don't really know I to deal with that type.He's always with the other guy named Jinyoung, they seem to be super close and it pisses me off saying them together.
"Seriously Jaebum stop obsessing over him" said Mark while sticking is fork in his food. It's lunch break we are at the cafeteria eating at our usuals table Mark, yugyeom and I.
" over who ?? I don't know what you're talking about." I just respond
" Jackson wang ! you've been staring at me the whole week I'm surprise he hasn't noticed it yet. Are you in love or something? " said the elder
" no I'm not !! " " I just want to be friend with him he looks so cool "
" well hyung if you like him that much you should go and talk to him" says the maknae while sipping on his favorit drink a choco shake.
" and how am I suppose to do that ??" I whine " you guys pretty damn know that I don't know how to talk with strangers especially handsome looking ones. what am I suppose to tell him huh ? It's not like I could just go over there and talk to him like we knew each other or something beside I'm pretty sure he doesn't even know who I am" I say crossing my arms.
" come on Jaebum is not a stranger " Mark says while putting his arm around my shoulder "we have English and history class with him. I heard he likes producing song you could talk music with him since both of you are into it"
" I think he's too shy to talk to him hyung " declare yugyeom with a grin on his face I glare at him hoping that he will get the message i'm still his hyung he can't teas me like this and get away with it.
" Is Yugyeom right Jaebum? " asked Mark with a soft caring voice
" yeah.... maybe.... I don't know " I admit, it's true that most of the time when people think I'm acting rude it's just that I'm shy and don't know how to respond when they talk to me.
" okay well let's us help you then, I actually know some of Jackson's closest friends I could try and introduce them to you or something if you know them it'll get easier for you to approche Jackson. what do you think? "
"well it's sound like a good idea hyung. But since when do you know jacksoon's friends? " ask yugyeom intrigued
" I have some classes with Jinyoung Jackson's best friend and youngjae and I are neighbores" I front my eyebrows at the motion of Jinyoung's name, this guy really has it all. He makes me kind of jealous
" Jinyoung like Park Jinyoung ? The handsome guy with dark hair ?"
" yeah him he's actually really nice we send each others textes sometimes he's helping me with math since I don't really have goods grades in math lately"
" wow damn hyung that guy seems so uptight I don't know how you managed to befriend him ! " declares yugyeom still in chock by his hyung social skills.
" No trust me once you know him you'll see how nice and caring he is that guy is a real angel"
" well if you say so hyung. so when are we meeting them then" says the coconut hair guy with a very excited look on his face.
"who said that I wanted to meet them? " I said with my arm still crossed
" come one jaebum don't act like a baby. It'll be fun trust me Jinyoung and youngjae are really nice you'll see you won't feel shy around them I garanty you. "
" yeah hyung you'll be fine my friend BamBam knows youngjae and apparently that guy is super kind don't worry " yugyeom reassures me
" yeah exactly yugyeom is right and in-fact i had some plans this afternoon with them you guys could join us if you want to we're going to the library for a study session"
" will Jackson be there ?" I ask while trying to hide the nervous ton in my voice.
" No there'll be just Jinyoung and youngjae don't worry " Mark reassures me
"Fine I'll go" I finally say still not sure if it's a good idea from what I've seen Jinyoung seems too serious and since his so close to Jackson I don't really want to be friend with him but I guess I should try to put my feeling aside if a want to change the situation. Even if I don't admit it out loud I'm still kind of frustrated not being able to be friend with Jackson.
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author's note
Being French is hard when you try to write a fanfic in English
sorry for the grammatical mistakes
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Meant to be : JACKBUM
Fanfiction" come on Jaebum he is not a stranger " Mark says while putting his arm on my shoulders "we have English and history class with him. I heard he likes producing song you could talk music with him since both of you are into it" " I think he's too shy...
