(what an emo teenager istg)
why did you say your hello?
just while i was nursing my lonely heart solo
why do you even try to say my name
do you think it would be the same?
i wouldn't be this careless if i saw your face less
my morning shouldn't cause me some distress
just because every time you don't step out of your building
your absence unfortunately graces me with a strange feeling
i never want to feel the relief of seeing you walk past by me
with me trying to act so naturally
it isn't natural for me to avoid a person's eyes
but i know if i look at yours it would reveal all my painful lies
the young kids love to sit beside you
perhaps it's because you might as well act like one too
but it never fails to make me smile
when they reach out for your hand just so you can make their time worthwhile
it never gets better during the afternoon
the way i wait whether you'll sit near or far leaves me so strewn
because no matter where you are
my eyes lead me to linger on you no matter how far
you act so ignorantly and stupidly
but as i see you more and more you know more than anyone can say surprisingly
while you are attempting to show it off
i can't help but simply just scoff
you exert efforts in studies in a strange way
saving videos to learn complicated questions no doubt on loop or replay
i guess you do have a mind after all
yet you still act like an infant left to crawl
you are a bird who knows and breathes music in its system
but when you chirp to sing and release that song where is the rhythm?
stick to playing those strings, dear boy
because that's the area of music you won't destroy
when you play those strings i admit you sound perfectly
but those weren't the only strings you strummed expertly
played with my own heartstrings so pathetically
now i'm trying to reject your fingertips desperately
you are such a mystery left unsolved
even though you give out stories of yourself uncontrolled
i do not know you and i never would
so please don't give me this feeling that i definitely should
i don't get why i chose to stay
to write about you wholeheartedly, so i say
thank you for being unique
but please let me play the role of being your unbiased critic
why is that even though i can now openly see your flaws
you still scratch through my cold exterior with your claws
you are and never will be perfect
so don't try to reel me in with your redeeming aspect
why is that your idiotic tendencies
leave me to treat my own self and mind as enemies
you conflict me in ways that I shouldn't find you adorable
because you aren't so stop being so comical
too narcissistic for your own good
that sometimes i just want to knock a nail on your head like you're a block of wood
just because a lot of people fell to become your victim
i will not let you be the only music paying in my head as a continuous rhythm
i will let the idea of you go for good
because i never really understood
why was it even you in the first place
take me back to where i didn't know you so i can permanently replace
you
are not worth my frustrations
that is why i'm giving you my final salutations
you are not worth my beautiful word
so i'm leaving you my good bye and i'm moving onward
{spoiler alert: guess what, you freaking didn't}
