There is always pain behind my smile , no matter how happy I try to be the pain tries to over come me , I want to cry I feel alone , I try to fight it , it's getting harder to hide it , I don't know what to do , is the way I feel really true ? I'll smile again someday , I know I will, but until then my feeling , just stop and stay still, I tell myself , don't let them down , it's going to be ok , The feelings slowly calm down. I want to just hide and I wish I could be happy and not have to pretend , I live a lie , that needs to become real again. I want to tell the truth , but then again I don't , the more truth I share the more I feel ... alone
Tell me does it ever get better , i can't hide underneath my sweater forever . I wanna be happy , I want you to see my smile , but I cant do that when Im living in denial , I just want someone who's been through the same , I want someone who's made it out this sick worlds games , please Bully, don't hurt me , I don't know what I did to you , to make you hate me like you do , I have hair , and dress my best , I guess no matter how hard I try im just not like the rest , is it because I'm short and chubby ? Is it because Im not that pretty ? Or maybe you're in pain too , that is what I see , you're just like me , but you choose to take it out on others , someone hurt you before , and all you wanted was to be like your older brother , you know I wanna be like mines too, he's nice , and handsome , and everyone loves him , the mean people too, im here you know I have feelings too , i may not show them often but feel special if I share them with you. I just want to help others , when it comes to others I could care less about how I feel , as long as your ok , my heart will beat for another day . I swear that's truth , all I want is too feel wanted too .
