My 3 masters

Chapter 9

I smile and look down at the dark wooden table, trying to get the courage to ask them if I can go out today with Lucy.

I bounced my foot up and down as I think about the different scenarios that might take place when a plate of hot steaming pancakes are placed in front of me. My mouth aches and waters at the delicious sight in front of me, my eyes flicker upwards to see Tristan smiling down at me.

His hand comes down to my face, I flinch away and close my eyes but then feel a thumb glide across my cheek, butterflies erupt my stomach and I reluctantly open my eyes to see Tristan smiling and his eyes glowing.

"How are you this morning ally, hope you had a good night rest?" He says in a quite hushed voice like he wasn't trying to scare me. I open my mouth trying to reply but no words come out, I blush and look down at my lap.

Laughs boom around me making me feeling even more embarrassed and smaller, a chair scrapes beside me and a muscular leg appears next to mine "eat you breakfast love" I hear Evan say as I begin to hear the sound of knifes and forks scrape against their plates.

I bit my lip and look up at them finally getting enough courage to ask them I take a deep breath and say quietly while my hands interact with one an other "erm I was wondering if I can go out tonight.... with my friend Lucy".

The sound of cutlery stop and three pair of eyes are on me Justin clears his throat and shares a look with the other two before turning to me and placing his hand on top of my trembling ones.

He clears his throat " and where would you be going with the friend of yours" he says and smiles giving my hands a gentle squeeze, I smile and say " I'm not sure she hasn't told me but we wouldn't be going anywhere we shouldn't and she just wants to meet up because she misses me" as I finish they all look at each other and look like their having a conversation without actually talking.

I giggle quietly and nervously squirm in my chair as I look at them. Evan crosses him arms and looks at me, a demanding look on his face "you can go" I squeal as I bite my lip, my eyes wide with excitement "but you need to eat all your breakfast" I stop and my shoulders fall down undefeated.

"We understand you haven't been eating as much as we would like you to eat and we would like to change that" Tristan says and he places a piece of pancake in his mouth and smiles "eat the two small pancakes in front of you then you may go" my eyes pleading them to pick something else for me to do but all they do is go back to eating their breakfast, I sigh and look down at my pancakes my stomach begins to rumble and I bite my lip.

" Don't do it " the sinister voice whispers inside my head "you'll regret it you're too fat already".

I close my eyes " I've got this " I say to myself as I open them I pick up my knife and fork, I slowly begin cutting my food into tiny pieces before my hand shakily bringing a piece up to my mouth on the fork, my mouth opens slightly and I shove it in slowly chewing the sweet soft tendered pancakes. I moan softly I realised how much I've missed them as I begin eating more.

Before I know it I've finished and everyone's looking at me proud and happily, guilt consumes me as tears enter my eyes and grab my arms and dig my nails into my flesh feeling a stinging sensation knowing I've broke skin.

"Well done" I hear them all coo as they stand up, Justin lifting me up and onto his waist. I wrap my legs around him and tuck my head into his neck as he begins walking. I feel him sit down and I remove my head from his neck as I realised we're in the living room, even and Tristan sit down on the sofa and a blanket is throw over us.

I snuggle closer to Justin as the screen lights up and tangled appears on the screen I smile softly and as the thought of food suddenly disappears from my mind and butterflies enter my stomach once again.

Through the movie my eyes begin to feel heavy, before knowing darkness consumes me and for the first time in a while the feeling of me safe was with me.