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They say that Love is the closest thing to magic we have in this world. That Love is such a powerful force it can move mountains, build canyons and change the world. I never paid much attention to those kinds of descriptions, for me Love was more about the small things. Grocery shopping with a dork you adored, the feel of a warm hug from your favorite teddy bear, the scent of the person you love as a comfort.

All that changed from sweet beautiful nothings to cruel ugly reminders of a love dead. Or at least that's how it was for me.

4 years ago-Y/N POV

'Tomorrow the big day!!! Our 2 year anniversary!!! I wonder if Jimin is planning something with my best friend too. She's been kinda secretive lately.' Tae's deep voice brought me out of my thoughts. "Y/N-ah, can I please have some chocolate???😘😙" I patted his head slightly exasperated, isn't he supposed to be older than me? "~Aw Tae baby~.........

No." His face fell, it was sad, funny and adorable all at the same time. "I asked you to help me plan a romantic evening with JimChim, we are here to find ingredients for a special dinner not for you to spend my money on food you haven't earned. Now you are Jimin's best friend so help me."

With a light, embarrassed blush he started putting the appropriate vegetables in the cart. I chuckled lightly at his actions and decide to slip some chocolate in the cart when we pass the candy aisle.

We finish up in produce and move to the spice aisle. I snuck away from the cart and Tae to the candy aisle to grab a thank you treat for TaeBae. Him and Jin have definitely become my besties over the last 3 years. I grabbed him a Hershey bar and a Twix for me and turned to find a couple looking so in love it hurt. And it did.

It hurt me.

It hurt me to see the man I love and the girl who was practically my other half kissing.

I was frozen is pain, I went numb. I vaguely registered the thud of the candies hitting the ground as I watched them giggle and hold each other. I was in agony.

I don't know how long I had been looking at this sickening scene when Minjae made eye contact with me. My supposed best friend jumped out of his arms so quick with such a panicked look in her eyes. It was funny actually, so I started to laugh. I laughed for about 30 seconds and cut off into a cold stony face.

"Y/N-ah. What are you doing here?" Jimin asked me with a scared voice. He moved to hug me but froze once I calmly placed a hand on his chest. I heard Tae's voice calling my name, and as it got closer I simply stared at them with a stone cold face.

Tae came around the corner and dramatically gasped like the dramatic little shit he is. "Oh no you caught us. Everything is ruined" Jimin's face went dark. "So you're cheating on me with my best friend, and I'm cheating on you with yours." Tae's face changed to a shocked expression when he realized what was happening "No Jimin, we're shopping for the special romantic dinner she worked hard to plan for your anniversary tomorrow."

The entire time Minjae's head was bowed in shame. I put my hand on her head and she looked up with tears in her eyes. "Why? Why would you do this to me? You or the world remember? Why did you choose the world?" I wondered at how she could betray me like that. She was an absolute mess at this point and I was still stone cold.

"I'm so so so sorry. This will never happen again. Please forgive me. I'm so sorry." She begged for my forgiveness. A part of me wanted to care. Wanted her pleadings to reach my heart. But my heart couldn't hear anything over the pain. "I can't... no I can but I won't. Trust is like glass, and you broke our glass. Even if we somehow glued it together it wouldn't be the same." I sighed before continuing,"I love you. I always will but staying friends won't be healthy for either of us. I genuinely hope you guys are happy together. Jimin you can pick up your stuff from my place tomorrow."

I bet I looked calm. I bet I looked ok. But inside I felt like screaming, crying and hitting something all at the same time. Most of all though I felt broken. I'm tired of love hurting me. My first love, my dad, and now Jimin, I-I just can't. I can't overreact or even react till they are out of my life. I just need space before I react.

I turn and headed towards the door, feeling betrayed. I was stopped by a hand on my wrist, I freaked for a sec thinking it was Jimin but it was my TaeBae. He stated hard into my eyes for 30 seconds and pulled me toward the car.

We drove for what felt like hours but was maybe 2 minutes when he finally parked the car...

At a McDonald's. And not just any McDonald's, the only one in Korea that has American owners, so that means REAL unhealthy, fattening, heart attack inducing goodness that lifts up any mood. He came around the car and opened the door like a gentleman. He helped me out and walked me in holding my hand.

I'm so grateful to have Tae as a friend. When Jimin accused us of being together I almost exposed my little gay Rainbow and his crush on Jungkook. But I held my tongue because TaeBae doesn't deserve a friend who's a snitch. He sat me down and went for food.

When he came back we talked. And laughed. and I began feel ok again. Not a lot but enough to smile again.

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But I'm still done with love.😑