serendipity

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my mouth opened and i sat next to him in shock. my crush, the one i liked for years, has liked me back?

'no. you're joking with me right?' he looked at me offended. 'why would i?'

'you're not tipsy, you're drunk. you don't know what you're talking about' i told him, making him grab my arms and shake me to calm me down. 'look, i like you. a lot. ever since that stupid prom where that jerk jisoo left you and you had to be alone! i knew you needed someone better. you didn't deserve him.'

i just couldn't believe it. my prayers were getting answered. i still couldn't believe it. but everything shattered in seconds like the glass that you break.

'but you can't like me back' he said.

for you to be happy, there are some things you need to risk.

i was ready to risk my life for him, no matter what. he was probably too. but not in the way i wanted him to.

'why?'

i was disappointed in him. he told me he likes me, then expexts me to not like him back. stupid yet so childish.

'we have grown up together seo, you know me the best. even better than my parents. but i don't think that's a good thing in a relationship' he whispered, turning his head away.

my heart broke into more pieces. i asked myself, how? how was it possible to love someone so much yet let them touch my heart without their hands, and break it so painfully.

'fuck that jungkook' his head turned to look at me. 'if you like someone you are ready to risk it all for them and not say that you can't be with them for some stupid reason. jungkook, i have liked you ever since that stupid kindergarten and when you stood up to the girls who poured sand over my hair. i have been through everything with you and every part hurt. a lot.'

his eyes widened and he fidgeted with his fingers. tears welled up in my eyes, waiting for him to say something. but he didn't.

i stood up from the couch, leaving him sitting in the booth alone.

'seo!' he called me back as i was about to walk away. i looked at him. he just mouthed an 'i love you' but i just turned around. i went back to the VIP booth and sat next to taehyung. he didn't ask anything.

i couldn't handle the pain in my heart,  so i started to cry. i sobbed loudly while the tears in my eyes were bitter. 

'hey, are you okay? did you find jungkook?' he leaned to me. instead of answering, i started to cry harder.

'oh' was all he said.

after a little while i felt arms wrapped around my body and i looked up to see taehyung awkwardly hugging me. i smiled through my tears.

'don't cry over him. i don't know what he said to you. but please don't cry, it truly doesn't look good on you. you look better when you smile'

i would smile if he was there. the sole reason for my happiness was him.

'he told me he likes me' taehyung took his hands off of me and turned my head to look at his face. he had the softest and prettiest smile on his face.

'so? why are you crying then? you have more luck than me though' we chuckled together. 'look, you're pretty when you smile' he told me, putting my hair behind my ear. i felt my cheeks heat up.

'm-mostly because he told me we can't be together' he furrowed his eyebrows.

'what? why?'

'because we are friends since the old days and i know him too well... i don't know...' i sighed.