Goodbye "Best Friend"

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Goodbye "Best Friend"

Hey Best Friend... well I should say Ben. You know the first time I saw you I thought "why is he being so loud" well I figured out why now, you were fighting Nathan.  Well I guess Nathan is your real Best Friend. You were always so self conscious and worrying about everything, but I thought you were perfect. I sat beside you in language class... of course you know that we never stop talking in class.  I was always looking forward to language class because of you. Fuck I use to hate language class cause well I sucked. You made me laugh so hard one day that Mrs Jackson almost gave me detention, I never told you that though. Every time you would stretch your pants would fall and your shirt would go up. I saw those lime green boxers at least once a week, heck it made me laugh every time. But hey Best Friend you made me smile no matter what, and those were the some of the only real smiles I had. I could talk about every memory I had with you but what's the point of that when I won't be here to make more? This is going to get dark but by the time you get this you'll already know what happened. But if you don't well I killed someone. I killed ME! I'm sorry benji. I'm no good. I can't do this anymore. I couldn't do this anymore. I was tired, a type of tired sleeping can't cure. A type of tired I couldn't get rid of. I can't damnit I couldn't do this anymore. I'm sorry Best Friend. Please don't be sad for me I don't deserve your tears. So please live for me ok? ok... good cause I want you to be the better version I couldn't be. I love you. I loved you with everything thing I had. I guess this is      Goodbye
I love you Benjamin

-Chloe

As Benjamin read the letter Chloe gave him tears started to pour out on the paper making the ink from the pen messy. His mother came to his room to find out why she heard her son crying. When she opened the door she saw her son in a ball shaking, but Ben was holding a  paper with neat black writing. Benjamin's mother grabbed the paper and read it. She started to tear up as she now understood why her son is going crazy. The girl he always talked about at dinner, his crush that everyone knew except Chloe, the girl who he was in love with was dead... she committed suicide.