Life In Technicolor || Ashton Irwin

Chapter 33

Chapter 33

Valerie's P.O.V.

"Ashton?" I ask quietly, my mouth hanging slightly open.

"I brought you flowers." He says, holding them out towards me. "White roses. You mentioned you liked them once,so..." His voice trails off. "Oh! And I know you're probably mad I didn't invite you to see us perform at that bar thing a while back, so I just made you a cd with all the songs we sang instead. That way I couldn't really mess up." He says, holding it out to me as well.

I take the flowers and the cd cautiously. "Thank you." I tell him.

"Um, I want to apologize. I know I'm not good at apologies, and I'm sorry about that. I'm also sorry about making you feel like shit. I'm sorry about yelling at you, pushing you away. Um, I'm sorry for being a douchebag, just in general, you know? I know I didn't show it much, but I really care about you, Valerie. I'll admit it. I did break up with you because I didn't want you to get hurt. I was only hurting you and I didn't know how to stop so I figured the best way to do it was to break it off. I know it was lazy on my part. I should've put effort into it. I really should've tried, but I was tired. I was just so tired, but I'm better now, Val. I feel better. And it's not that you were making me feel bad, because you're the person that makes me the happiest in this whole entire world and I hate the fact that I made you upset and you didn't deserve it, fuck. You were right, Val. I never deserved you. I didn't deserve you any second I had you. I'm so sorry. For everything I did. I just feel I did so much shit to you. I'm a horrible person, Val. You're better off without me. Just forget about me. It's what I deserve." He tells me quietly.

I nod, not sure what to say. I'm in a stunned silence.

"I figured I'd get that reaction." He says with an awkward laugh. "I just wanted to apologize."

"Thanks." I tell him with a soft smile. "For the flowers and stuff. And for apologizing."

"Yeah, it was no problem." He says with a frown. "Um, I guess I'll see you around."

"Thanks for stopping by." I tell him with a gentle smile.

"See ya." He says, before turning around and walking down the hall. I watch him disappear down the stairs and close the door.

I walk into the kitchen and get a vase out. I fill it with water and put the roses inside. I pick the cd case up in my hands and smile at Ashton's messy handwriting scrawled across the top. 'For Valerie (because I was an asshole)'. I set it back down on the counter and bite my lip.

I think I'm over him.

I laugh out loud at myself before walking towards the front door and throwing it open. I laugh as I run all the way down the stairs, my hair flying out of my bun, getting even more tangled than it already is. I see Ashton walking down to his car, head facing down. I bite down on my lip with a smile as I move my legs faster. I feel my heart beating wildly in my chest as I open my arms and launch myself at him. He topples forward, but regains his balance. I let go and he turns around, his eyes wide as he faces me. I giggle loudly again before wrapping my arms around his neck. I can't help but notice how confused he seems, but I don't care. He wraps his arms around my waist tightly and buries his head into the crook of my neck.

"Ashton." I tell him quietly, pulling away from him and looking up into his eyes.

"Valerie." He says slowly.

"I love you." I tell him with a smile.

His face breaks out into a huge grin before he responds. "I love you too."

"I really love you. And I forgive you. And I love you. So much." I tell him, looking up at him adoringly. "But I shouldn't forgive you. And I don't know if I want us to be together again, Ashton. You make me so happy, but then again, there's things that I never expected you to be capable of doing and saying. I know you're sorry, but I'm not sure if I can."