One Life (Một Đời Ấy-Eng. ver)

Reminiscing our times. Regretting losing true love.

I am the well-known Qianlong Emperor. I was praised and worshipped by my people. I have everything at my beckon call, even the strong DaiQing* I have it. All were at the palm of my hands. But you are not.

You are not here with me. Those years, since you left me. I am but an empty vessel with power that chained me with regrets.

My BeiYueKwang*.

I first met you when you were sixteen. The year we were officially wedded. We talked as we walked along the garden.

"Little fairy." I teased. Your cheeks reddened as I continued. When I saw you smile I felt my heart pound.

Enchanting.

My hands were already around you before I realized. I shouldn't say that again, I thought. To apologized, I made a huge kite for you.

When I became Emperor. I didn't notice the smile on you were forced.

When I became Emperor, I ordered you to act like a real Empress. Regal and Strong. I ordered you to be selfless, that sharing your man with another woman is normal. I ordered you to become what I think deserve me.

You did. You followed my words, my orders, my wishes, everything. You became my Ideal Empress.

And by then, my heart had already became stone for you.

You are not her! I roared in my head, Where is the person I loved?

Doubts muddled my thoughts,

Was I wrong?

No! I never made a mistake!

Whose tongue did she follow?

She was the one that took the actions herself. It was not me!

You pushed her.

Never!

I am an Emperor. I am the son of Heaven. A man-made god. I am never wrong!

When I bring women on my bed, kissing them, and holding them I ignore the tears you spill. When I smile to others and not to you I ignore the tightening on my chest.

And you still love me.

I began noticing those smiles that you put up crookedly, the eyes that were glittering with life were only shadows what It once were. The only times I saw glimpses of the woman I loved is the kite I gave you and our children, YongLian and YongCong.

Why?

It doesn't matter. You are my wife, it is your responsibility to care for me.

When they passed, no tears were spilled, your mouth never moved. When I confronted you for the first time in a while, you don't say even a squeaked.

You became a living doll.

"Fu Sat Yungln."

"..."

"Speak."

"..."

"Speak this instance!"

"..."

My blood boiled when you didn't respond. I only saw red before I was out of your palace. But, I remembered my last words as if they were a chant.

"Then die!"

The next day, you were reported missing. The day after that, you reported suicide.

The words I wished I told you were stuck in my throat.

"I'm sorry."

Though it's too late.

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BeiYueKwang*: Means your very first love.

Qianlong: Name of a very famous emperor of China.

Yonglian: The eldest son of Qianlong and YungIn.

Yongcong: The youngest son of Qianlong and YungIn.

Fu Sat YungIn: The first Empress of Qianlong.

DaiQing: The name of the country of China under the Qing dynasty