I Regret It All

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Ever had that boy that tells you you're beautiful all the time and compliments you and just shower you in "love". And tells you that you're the only one for them? Sound familiar? Well I fell under that wicked spell of lust and I regret it ALL. My name is Kalyn Nicole Rogers, I am 20 years old and I am a single mother of twin girls. I still remember the first time I lost my virginity, just like it was yesterday. I'm not calling the boys name, we'll just call him "Mr". Anyway that whole week he has been showing me extra love and buying me gifts and me being the love struck teenager I was took it, but he was looking for something in return. He said these exact words "I gave you all this shit so now I want something in return". Me being the naive 18 year old I was thought he was talking about a gift or present but we we're talking about two totally different gifts. I wouldn't let him at first and he called me a "baby" and began to walk away but I didn't want him to walk away cause I actually thought we we're soul mates. I also remember these words "you can't get pregnant from your first time" and you see what happen and as soon as I told him i was pregnant he used that infamous line "it ain't mine" I was so mad at that point I hit him in his face hard. The blow knocked him off of his feet and to add salt to the womb his little "crew" was right there. He stopped talking to me and spread nasty rumors about me. But the worse part was telling my parents, the one facial expression you never want to see your parents have is: disappointment. They we're disappointed then kicked me out. I went to my "friends" house and see if I could stay with them but of course they all said no, they we're all moving away to college and doing something constructive with their life, while I was pregnant. I know my ex-boyfriend wasn't a option and my ego was to big to stay at a shelter. I tried to find a job but nobody wanted a homeless 18 year old. I was sad, depressed and confused the first three months of my pregnancy. I had nobody to turn to the world around me was crashing down and fast. I even had the thought of suicide but I'm glad I thought on that and turned away from it. But one day out of the random this family came and let me stay with them until I got myself on solid ground. It was like the turning point in my life, they gave me food, shelter and even things for the babies. I can't remember their name and that's a shame they are like my guardian angels. Anyway I had my twin baby girls on September 7, 2014 and everything has been uphill from there. At the time I found a little apartment for the three of us and I had a little job but it was bringing in money. My dreams of becoming a singer and dancer with a big family and a big house are being put on hold until future references but I'm still keeping the hope alive. I have two beautiful two year old, Aaliyah and Marie. They are two years old and healthy and everyday I thank god for them. But a little bit more about me I am mixed with Mexican, White and Black and I have long dark brown hair and now I am the co-executive of a big time fashion magazine and it's paying big money and I now live in a big house and I am able to provide my daughters with their every need. I am just missing that other piece to my puzzle, my soul mate.

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Kayln pov: I just got done cleaning the entire house. While keeping a eye on Aaliyah and Maria I don't even know why cause if you put a episode of Sponge bob on they will watch it. I guess it's a mother thing. I plopped down on the couch and before I could even get comfortable my doorbell rung. -_- I went to the door and it was my best friend Courtney. The first thing that came out of her mouth is "bitch I hate you" and she laughed. We play like that for some odd reason, I laughed at her and said "why?" while getting up and giving her a hug. "cause you wearing a freakin tank top, shorts and matching socks and still look good" she said. i looked down at my outfit and I wasn't dressed that fancy all I had on was a grey Roc Royal shirt, my old cheer leading shorts and grey socks, aye whatever helps her sleep at night. "I'm taking you out come on" she said. Pushy much? But aye long as shes paying "I'm not paying" she said as if she read my mind. I rolled my eyes and grabbed Aaliyah and took her upstairs. I washed her up and changed into a light pink Polo shirt, jeans and light pink Toms. She has a head full of hair like ponytail material. I put her hair in a ponytail and sent her on her way, I'm guessing Courtney had the other twin. I took a quick shower and changed into a blue high low dress with a gold strap around it and gold heels. I put some gold hoops and gold bangles on and did a natural look. I guess I'm keeping it a simple look, anyway I walked downstairs and I heard Courtney yelling "KAYLN COME HERE" I ran in their and I saw her gawking at all the shoes I bought them. I have a little shoe obsession and I buy me and the twins me A LOT of shoes. "damn" she said gawking at the shoes. I took Maria from her hands and washed her up and changed her into a pink shirt that said "Maria" on the front in black and white and I put some skinny jeans and baby  Nike Air Diamond Turf. I put her hair in a ponytail and we all walked downstairs. Yes they can walk and at a young age.

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