ah so your back again
wonderful
it hits slow
always does
until it doesn't
I'll admit you were unexpected
I'll let you win this round
don't expect my guard to be down again though
I'm ready for you
peaceful
everything was calm and good and fine
fine
that feeling is invalid and it never lasts
lasts
it always lingers but it'll end
ending
is something that takes an eternity
it's funny
hilarious even
one thought sets it off
it's uncontrollable
inevitable
I know this
I'm still scared though
terrified
it nags and pulls at first
a whisper
then it's a piercing scream
one that both erupts from my mind and my mouth
an outburst that'll never be silenced
it closes in on me
my chest hurts
my breathing is heavy
I can't move
I can usually escape to the bathroom
not this time
I'm paralyzed
I'm curled into a ball on the ground
I'm shaking
tears are cascading down my face
I'm desperately trying to stifle my sobs
my ribs hurt
I'm struggling to get air out
I'm bitting my fist yet again
at least no one is around
the feeling, subsided
it's over with for now
time to go back to normal and pretend everything is
fine
YOU ARE READING
𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖌𝖒𝖆
Poetrya bunch of random poems and thoughts that have lived deep within my notes app.
