I feel like no one really cares about me. Like people would be better off without me. They dont want me or need me, im just a waste of space. Im nothing. Im just annoying and I overthink shit and i just bother people. I do nothing to contribute to people, i do nothing i cant help people and i cant accept happiness at all. All i do is piss people off and start drama. Even my own family hates me. I wasn't supposed to even be born and im reminded of that everyday, im reminded of the fact that im unwanted and unimportant. Im pushed around by everyone and no one cares about how i feel. I have no real friends just people who use me for art or to get good grades. Im not number 1 to someone, im never the first thing they think of, cuz theres always someone more important. Im not even important to my own bf. I always put others above myself. Trying to make them happy at any risk. I've lost so many people trying to make other people happy. And for what? Someone to ignore me or to act like everythings fine when it isn't? To get pushed aside at any inconvenience? To be replaced when i get boring? I cant deal with this. Im a fuck up, a mistake, I shouldn't be here.
