The Chronicles (A Celebrity Love Story)

Chapter 43: Alone

* Zarion's POV *

I got off my flight in New York making my way over to the studio I knew Birdman would be working at. I sat out in the taxi looking at his Lamborghini sitting out. I paid for my fare & got out walking inside. I could hear the music from different booths playing passing all the records hanging on the walls. I looked inside one & spotted Birdman sitting down nodding his head along to Lil Twist rapping. I opened the door & stood there watching. Birdman turned around & noticed me. Turning back around & speaking into the microphone: 15 minutes. Lil Twist put the headphones down & walked out for a break. Birdman rubbed his hands together as I took a seat.

Birdman: Sup witcha?

Zarion: Nothing.

Birdman: Hear you finally got yourself a man...

Zarion: Look, it's not exactly what I want right now.

Birdman: You seem happy.

Zarion: I may look like it, but I rather be with you.

Birdman: Ah man...

He said leaning back in his chair looking at me. I nodded my head.

Zarion: I want you, I want us back. We had something good you can't deny that. I've found myself thinking about you more & more. I thought I would eventually get over it, but I can't.

He stared at me & finally opened his mouth to speak.

Birdman: That's good & all. Look, I don't think I'm the man for you & I don't think I'm ready for a relationship right now either. I just think we should continue working on music & being friends.

Zarion: I don't want to be your friend.

Birdman: We wouldn't work.

Zarion: How do you know if you never try?

He sat there & looked at me, before I knew it... I stood up & made my way out of the studio. I cared for him, hell I found myself loving him. Why was it he didn't wanna give me the time of the day? Was it someone else? Or was he really not ready for a relationship? All these mixed feelings made me realize that I didn't have to drag Omarion along if my heart wasn't exactly there. I got back home to LA & walked inside my apartment. Omarion was about to greet me with a kiss but I moved out the way.

Omarion: How did New York go?

I sat down & shook my head.

Zarion: Not good.

Omarion: Sorry about that. I was thinking maybe we could go out for dinner tonight, ya know?

Zarion: I think I'll stay here.

He gave me a confused look but broke out into a smile.

Omarion: Oh you wanna stay & practice?

He said winking his eye & making his way over to me. I threw my hands in the air.

Omarion: What's wrong with you?

Zarion: Nothing.

I said standing up & going back into the kitchen grabbing a water.

Omarion: What? Something happened in New York?

I got tired of all the questions & became aggravated. Still pissed about how things went with me & Birdman.

Zarion: I went to see Birdman in New York.

He looked at me before looking away.

Omarion: What you do that for?

Zarion: I tried working things out with him.

Omarion: Working things out? What's to work out? What you not happy with me?

Zarion: Look, you're a great guy & you'll be a great husband someday too. I just don't want to drag you along if my heart is really somewhere else right now.

He shook his head & walked into the bedroom grabbing his stuff.

Zarion: I'm sorry.

Omarion: Yeah, me too.

He said slamming the door behind him. I took a sip of my water & walked to the bedroom laying across the bed. Grabbing a pillow into my arms. I didn't know where I would be in 5 years while everyone else was finding love. & when I find my lil piece of happiness, it's like it leaves. I just wanted to be happy with someone who makes me happy, but I think I'll forever be alone.