All this time, I thought love was just a fiction. It was what people say when they find someone to be with when they are bored out of their lives, when they want to settle so that they didn’t have to spend the rest of their lives alone.
I thought they would find a man or a woman that their minds find attractive and call it love. I thought all of it was fake.
Until I fell in love with a stranger…
I left because I had to figure out how to live alone, manage my bills and simply grow up. I taught my teenage high-school students that they need to decide on everything with their minds and not their hearts because heart is a fickle thing that can change in a second. I never imagined that everything I believed in would change just because I met him.
The man who wrecked my world and built it one brick at a time…
I loved, laughed and cried throughout these years without caring about the future or the consequences. I gave my everything to a stranger and wanted nothing in return. Never in my life would I think that I would change myself for someone or anything in my life for that matter.
I thought we were just two people living our separate lives until that one faithful afternoon that we met. Apparently we were two stars waiting to collide until we both perish.
A relationship is never a step on the road. It changes us and it molds us into being, well… us.
So, thank you my love. You molded me into being me. You brought me to the edge and told me that you’ll catch me if I fall, even though at the end I was the one falling without a safety net. You made me laugh until I cried and made me scream just so that you could hear what I was saying at the end. You wrecked me and built me at the same time, just so you can wreck me up again and leaving me alone to pick up the pieces.
Despite the hardships, despite the screams and the cries of the sad times, you gave me a reason to live and cherish life again.
We never thought we were starting something that was doomed from the beginning but at least now I know what love is and have memories that’ll stay until the end.
I hope one day comes and you find someone who will love you as much as I did. I hope that, she’ll be your water when you are fire. I hope that she becomes your rock to stop you from drifting mindlessly.
Despite it all, thank you…
