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And the gender is...

It's a boy y'all!

His name will be Ethan Killian. If you've read pretty much any of my stories, the name Ethan tends to pop up (usually side characters) because I've always been fond of it. Hubby wanted an Irish middle name, and we both liked the uniqueness of Killian. Finally, we came to an agreement. I didn't get my beloved boy name, Nashoba (Chickasaw for wolf and Nash for short), but I am happy with the name we eventually settled on. He'll still be my little nashoba.

It shocked the tits off me to hear it was a boy. Not gonna lie. Me and everyone's grandma thought it would be a girl. But hey... I had a fifty percent chance of being wrong. Lemme just say though, the old wives tales are bullshit. Don't bother. Every single sign pointed to a girl. I didn't do any ritual without the result being girl. Not one.

Ring on a string: bullshit
Chinese calendar: bullshit
Colored powder test: bullshit
Baby's heart rate: bullshit
Craving sweets: bullshit
Acne: bullshit
Various online quizzes at two in the morning: bullshit
Mother-in-law with unusual psychic powers (she really does. Read earlier entries to see what I mean): bullshit.

ALL of the above gave me a girl result. Every single time. My poor son was barely a thought in our minds. Honestly everyone I know has decided in their head it'll be a girl, so I'm gonna shock them at this party Saturday.

I was happy because I think little boys are adorable, but I was nervous to tell hubby. He had his heart set on a girl. Poor guy. So do his parents. I bought a bunch of blue balloons to surprise him after work yesterday. He was very surprised but seemed happy, though he wistfully passed the unicorn section with a look of longing at every store yesterday.

Hey, I'm all for boys playing with unicorns, glitter, dolls or whatever the fuck they want, but unfortunately my husband is old school. I was actually hoping for a girl because I dread my son growing up with messages of toxic masculinity. Me and hubby are going to have MAJOR issues and arguments about that. I sure as fuck am not raising a future member of the GOP.

Hubby's saving grace is his love and respect for animals. At least our son won't be torturing kittens or tearing the legs off frogs. From an early age he'll be taught about respecting nature and the animal spirits. We agree on that, at least.

Plus, I'm sneaky. If the kid wants a doll, I'll make sure he gets it. ;)

Overall, I'm thrilled. It wasn't what I imagined, but I'm thrilled. All the stuff we bought has been gender neutral except one pink chair that was on sale. We are seeing about getting gray cushions. This is the nursery theme we've chosen:

I wanted something Native inspired of course. This set is so cute! The owl blanket was too sweet to pass up, though I'm trying to avoid owls. It's so weird the different view of owls that Western culture has versus Native culture. In native culture they are a death omen and something to be feared. But in western culture they're sweet little nighttime book lovers. So I sit somewhere in the middle, meaning I'm cool with owl stuff but don't want the entire nursery to be owls lol.

What do you think of the name and the nursery?