All Alone.

The beginning.

Once upon a midnight dreary, there was a girl, a girl confused and lost. Stuck in the life she despised. Forever trapped in the metal box to which she didn't have the key. So now I tell you the story of Jacy BlackBox. She was like every other 16 year old girl lost in the way of life. Weekends full of Netflix and popcorn. But it all started to spiral. She began feeling depressed, skipping school, drinking, sexing around. Acting out so much as a way to cope. Her parents utterly oblivious to what she was going through. It all started with a best friend that she loved and a best friends creepy uncle. Jacy and Monica were inseparable. Attached by the hip always riding for wheelers with her uncle ken and her mom. Then one day uncle ken kissed Jacy. Confused at his words "you have to get better at that". She went inside to change from Pjs. Then told Monica of what happened an she said yeah he has molested me a few times.. He's a creep but I love him.. Confused and blinded Jacy went with it kissing him uncomfortably every time she saw him.

Waking with a gasp wipes the sweat off her forehead used to the awful dreams.. she has about an hour before she has to get up for school. Jacy decides to get online and see if Alex will text her which he will its like noon in London. The Internet has always been her other life that she liked a lil better then the one she lived everyday. Getting up for school was never easy.. Even if she'd been awake for an hour already. Knowing what the day ahead called for she had tried numerous times to get her mom to let her be sick... It never worked. Walking through the halls of her high school half dead. Numb from life. She always came home to her step dad mom and her younger sister. Sometimes other family would be staying with them. On a normal day she dealt with anxiety, verbal abuse, bad memories and depression cause by all of it. She had lived with her step dad since she was about three. She never really liked him. When she was three she had a dad. Brian made her but abandoned her at six. Being sixteen now she still didn't understand and hates him for it. She felt as though she didn't have a dad anymore. Though her stepdad raised her fed her she couldn't stand him. He filled her head of words she now felt were true. mean cruelty she couldn't escape. The constant bagging, telling her she's dumb or fat. It tore her apart. Tracing her the scares on her legs remembering when they happened. suddenly having the urge to cut. She'd try to stop a few times, it never worked. You know how when your little they tell you to listen to the lil voice inside the tells you to do the right thing? Well for a lot of teens like Jacy, the little voice inside just wants you to hurt. It wants you to give up. Trying to feel something real Jacy would either cut or hook up with a random guy that would by her alcohol and drunk enough to think she was eighteen. Tonight was not one of the party till four am kinda nights. to night was one of thoughs nights where she stayed up watching twilight saga 1-5. While staying up all night talking to Tyler the sweetest guy in the world. She loved him and he loved her living in completely different states couldn't be together. But in a way they were. She so utterly exhausted, fell into a deep gooey sleep.