Fallen

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I sank to my knees, tears rushing down my face. I could hear him running down the stairs. He was yelling. I couldn't tell what it was though, because of the clamor in my ears. My vision was swimming. I couldn't tell right from left. I collapsed onto my floor, shaking. But I wasn't scared or cold, I was confident. I knew what I had to do. There was no other way out for me anymore.

I stood up, choking on the salty tears that's tracks found a way to the corner of my mouth. Stumbling I made my way to my door and locked it. A few seconds later there was a pounding on it.

"Lia, Lia no please. There has to be another way." More pounding on my door. "Lia open the door. Open the door. Please." The handle rattled furiously. I looked up toward my ceiling fan and the noose I had hung up on it. I wiped away one of my tears.

"And why should I?" I asked my voice sounding coarse. "I have nothing to live for anymore. Everyone has showed me that. No one cares anything about me. I'm done".

I pushed the chair that I keep by my desk up underneath my fan.

"Lia what are you doing. No please don't do this to yourself. I love you. Okay? I really do. You have to change your mind. please". He was begging to me. He beat his fists upon my door. I shook my head. I climbed onto the chair.

"Lia I never told you this and I regret it but, you mean the world to me." He paused and I could practically hear his body trembling as he cried. "Lia there has to be another way. You have so much to live for. You're beautiful and charming and I'm so glad that I took that terrible summer camp six months ago. Because it lead me to you. You laughed and I laughed. It was that laugh that got me hooked. I know you hate it but that was when I first started falling for you. And at the bonfire that night when I fell out of my canoe, you were on the dock... And you pulled me out, you asked me why I wasn't at the mandatory bonfire and the next morning we both snuck out of our cabins early to replace the Head Counselors oatmeal with Hamster Shavings". He was sobbing uncontrollably. And sadly so was I.

I was pathetic. Standing on my desk chair in my bedroom, noose around my neck, just waiting to step off and end my life for good. I closed my eyes. I breathed in. I breathed out. I lifted my leg to step off the chair. Just one leg keeping me breathing.

"You know what I realized about you at that camp? That you are a fighter. And that nothing could get you down." My leg started shaking. "Don't do this, please, I need you."

I dropped my head down toward my chest. Two teardrops rolled off my cheeks. I opened my eyes just to watch them hit the floor.