Hatred

          As one of many feelings, it is certainly the strangest. This may simply be because of the countless causes of this feeling. These causes are extremely specific to every individual and situation and the various circumstances that tie this feeling to anyone involved. That may seem confusing and blatantly vague, but it must be in order to apply this to everyone. Perhaps an anecdote will shed some light here. First I will set up the situation that my hatred for a girl stems from. I am obsessed with Kpop and in particular with the group BTS. I have found refuge in the songs and lyrics and their meaning and the people behind those songs and those people's relationships with each other and the choreography and the culture and the language and pretty much every aspect of BTS and Kpop in general. This group has truly built themselves up from nothing, supporting each other and building off of each other to get where they are today. They are extraordinary people in terms of their unending kindness and generosity and so much more. Their speeches are humbling and inspiring. They encourage self love and respect. They have created the most dependable and strong knit community the world has ever seen. This feat is incredibly impressive considering this community easily consists of over 20 million individual people spread across the entire world, breaching language and cultural barriers, beliefs and races and identities and endless factors of the individual personality. This community protects and respects and fights for and gives with endless generosity and love in exactly the same manner that the artists do for the community. This is just a few of the reasons BTS hold such a strong place in my heart and cause such strong happiness in my life. None of this would be possible if even one person was excluded in the process of bringing these seven people to fame. This is the reason the community, also known as the ARMY, believes that as a fan it is important to support and love every single member of the group. Now, lengthy as that backstory was, it will give some much needed clarity to my reasoning for hating this girl. She is actually a coworker and friend of my mother, who I came to meet because this girl also likes Kpop and BTS a lot. Upon meeting her she divulged that she actually hates one of the members of BTS and finds another of them annoying when they are not "singing" (which, might I say, is completely ignorant because the member in question is a rapper). This immediately sparked an immense hatred for her. I very strongly believe that every single member is beautiful and hard working and amazing in every aspect and that each one deserves the utmost respect and support for what they have done and dealt with to get where they are. Hearing that some one who supposedly cared for them like I do actually wishes that one or more of the members were never a part of the group was absolutely disgusting to me. Now every single time I look at her or talk to her or even think about her my blood boils. My hatred for her spreads throughout every fiber of my being and sets itself in my bones. It clenches at my heart and overwhelms me with such an intensity that it inspires nausea. As meaningless as her opinion may be, I can't help but let my hatred consume my every thought. To anyone else this simple statement of her opinion is easily brushed off or put away never to be thought of again, but for me it is not something easily ignored. This is why hatred is such a strange and complex emotion. It is almost scary how easily hatred forms at the most seemingly random occurrences. I, for one, will never cease to be amazed by the complexities of human emotions.