LOVE IS A MYSTERY BEHIND UNSEEN DOORS

CHAPTER 1

My name is Kourtney-mae I have blue eyes wavey brown hair not to long neither short average weight and height, Now 17 years of age I have 5 siblings 1 brother 4 sisters all older also my mum and dad.

So here's how it all began... I was the quite type of girl yet I was also popular, in year 9 I decided to drop out of school witch lead to me distanceing my self from alot of people. I began to find it hard socialising, witch eventually ended up in me being a self harmer I also put on weight in that time even though I wasn't what u called fat, I felt insercure I didn't realy no who I was. Soon enough my parents found out and sent Me for counsiling wich failed to make a differnce I still cut my self I also attempted a overdose that was at a realy bad stage though, I did keep a few friends close to me wich did start to help me I suppose self harming stop becoming an addiction to something I would rarely do. My friends were great. My bestfriend Milly is 16 blue eyes slim build and dimples she realy is the best I've known her all my life she was the one who found me after my overdose and got help my life saver ayye, Jojo Now she's a character 18 blonde hair and Irish skin and green eyes known her for 3 years now shes kind hearted and always a ear to listen to your problems :-), Tia 18 Brunette Blondish hair brown eyes and slim build shes the trouble maker! I've known her for years and years though we relate to eachother in ways of similar feelings towards our mums being ill. You see all my friends spoke about this boy that boy were as me boys were a awkward some what terrifying subject. Tia wasn't a virgin and boys come easy for her, but me milly and jojo were all still virgin's yet For milly and Jo attention came easy. I didn't go out much just to the girls houses or they would come to my home, I suppose thats why I never had much contact with boys thats how I liked it though being quite, although knowing the girls I did came with other people on my area knowing me to but I didn't mind as my existence was never realy noticed I was the shy type. When boys would talk to me I would shy away already thinking I wernt good enough.

CHAPTER 2

July 5th I turnt 15 time went by but things were still the same I still self harmed it was my only realise the only thing I could controll. I kept it very secretive, Although I had friends I longed for that boyfriend they allways spoke about, the kisses in the rain the late night phone calls. I thought if I had a boyfriend Who loved me I might love Me to I also might find Me! I did dream but was I realy good enough for any one a stupid voice in my head would always put an end to it. little did I expect my dream was round the corner. My sister Susie invited me to her house, She was a real beauty everyone said how we looked so alike she was just slimmer, I never went up to her house usaly as I knew the local boys would hang there. I decided to pluck up the courage and go any way as I thought there's no harm plus I could I smoke a few joints with my sister haven't seen her for so long forget some worries have a chat. I got dressed and left my house not to long after I approached my sisters home, The strong smell of weed hit me I could hear talking and laughter from her place. I hesitated before knocking Then my sister answerd and let me in. At first I was quite didn't talk to any one but my sister. Although one boy kept looking over at me I felt a bit embarrassed did I have something on my face why was he looking at Me!!! He had short brown hair the best green eyes I've ever seen and the cutest smile when he laughed. I got butterflies looking at him, Then all of a sudden he said 'Oi small susie' I looked up and said me, he replied 'of course you let me chat to you come sit next to me' he was the hood/gangster type boy that just made me wanna melt. I decided to sit next to him we got talking he seemed so cool I automatically fell in love with him, sad right I'd only known him a few hours but this warm feeling inside let me no I wanted him! he didn't realy give of any indication that he liked Me to it was more a friendship vibe. I decided to take his number as he was a dealer for weed and suggested I should call him for it. That night I went home and he was all I could I think of I wanted to call him I wanted to txt he was just on my head his green eyes and smile, the image of him just makes me melt and go tingley...