Chasing Love

Prologue

Prologue

"You only like things in between, Coreen. You only like the chase. You only want me chasing after you. You don't want to decide."

Basa ko sa linya ng paborito kong kwento. I suddenly felt something weird in my mind, goosebumps rather? I read the line many times, never realizing i was saying it too loudly until one of my friend, Muriel came.

"Alam mo, ikaw na ikaw yang babae dyan sa binabasa mong kwento. You only like the chase Chryzyla, hanggang habol kalang, ikaw lang yung nag hahabol. Kapag nagpapakita na ng motibo, bigla kang mawawalan ng gana agad." She said, while her eyes rolling.

Napaisip ako bigla sa sinabi nya, she has a point. I only like chasing the man I love, I am afraid of commitments. What comes after it? Natatakot akong mag take ng risk, kasi baka hindi mag work. Napatingin ako sakanya, about to talk when she started opening her mouth again.

"Remember, Chryzyla? Ilang lalaki naba ang hinabol mo sa buhay mo? Tapos natakot ka mag take ng risk pagkatapos? Hanggang habol kalang, pag ayaw mona, ayaw mona. Pano ka magkaka lovelife nyan?" Pagalit na anas nya.

Lovelife? Ano yun? Para saan yun?

"Because im afraid of taking risk! What if hindi kasi mag work? What if, kaya lang sila nagkagusto dahil naawa sila sakin? They gave the love they think i need because they pity me. Ayaw ko ng ganon, na bibigyan lang nila ko ng atensyon dahil naaawa lang sila." Sagot ko na kinainis ni Muriel lalo.

"E kaya ka nga nag papansin diba? Para bigyan ka ng atensyon? Ewan ko sayo Zyla, ang gulo gulo mo. Kaya iniiwan ka ng tao e." She said then go to the counter to order some coffee.

Is it really my fault? Do I really like the chase also? The things in between?

Is it okay to chase the man that I love? To chase the person that I think is the right one for me? Should i stop chasing love or it is the right thing to do to feel the love, to be loved?