so from the last time i wrote to now a lot has changed. not only in my life but also in the lives of others. for starters i have been feeling 100% better about myself and my looks.
so to start off reason im telling you also about the life of others cuz in these 10 months a lot has changed in my life. when i was down in the dumps i started to chat with a guy. the reason i started chatting was silly. so i was on pokeverse like i always am and i was doing the present hunt in spawn. but for some reason the last present was not there, i could not find it. so i asked staff who is the smart ass who placed the presents i wanna have a word with him! they told me it was XxPalaDemonxX. so the next thing that happen could not have been more weird. so i messaged Demon (as i will call him).
so demon i wanted to talk to you about the presents u hidden and where the hell the last one is! his reply was simply he would not say it (in a joking not saying :P kinda thing). for some reason i was dying to know where it was so i kept asking him questions about the presents (i know bad move but ehh it worked out). he started to talk to me about the fact that he was playing modded minecraft at that time and was being attacked by mobs. me being me and also kinda into modded i showed interest in his modded pack.
from there on out we kept in touch. one day me and my BFF madsi went on to play modded MC as well on a private server. i decided to be a nice person (like i magically always am) to invite him to play along with us. after a few days of him thinking about it he said sure id join in for the fun! so off we went to play modded minecraft with demon. after a few packs i started to feel as if demon was feeling much much happier playing with us then he did in the first time. so we kept playing modpacks to keep ourselves busy. one pack sticks out to me as one of the best memories in my MC career happend. i was wanting to work with bees (forgot the mod name WHOOPS).i got almost all kind of bees except one the jungle bees. i was focused on my other bees and madsi and demon went out exploring to find the missing bees. one day BOOM they found them (yay!) and madsi found the bees. however madsi was not the one to bring them to me, demon was! he was told by madsi to tell me he found them all alone. of-course knowing this demon confessed to me that madsi indeed found them and that madsi wanted to tell him it came from him. i felt weird but let it go for the time being. short after we finished that modpack demon and i had a long all night long conversation. we found out that we had a lot in common. like our passion for reading being bullied/not understood. we connected that night. and after a while of just talking about common interests he said to me (and ill never forget this). If i lived in the netherlands i would definitely date you. my heart just pumped faster and i was shocked. he was my friend and he just confessed he liked me! of-course me being me (and after a long convo of common interests and stuff) i said me too. i truly felt like i could love him and that he would never let me feel like i was not myself. from that moment on he said to me (no joke in the same night): once my father retires I'm basicly free to do whatever so I could potentially take a trip to the netherlands. (my god that would suck on the journey ( I hate heights and boats so im screwed either way (but worth it))). my heart just felt like WAIT WHAT HES ALREADY THINKING ABOUT SEEING ME! but i just told him the truth about how my parents hate me going out of town (and i do too). and so he said he could just visit my town. honestly it scared me a bit because even after like months of talking ive never seen his face who knows if ill even love his looks. so because i loved his personality i thought to myself what the hell i only live once.
we kept talking about things and the next day he sent me a picture of one of his cats (OMG HE IS SO FLUFFY!) and ofc i could see a little bit of him in the picture (not bad but very limited on what i saw cuz it was just a tiny bit of his forehead and some hair xD). after that we just talked about odded minecraft alot i dont think we really knew what love has planned for us ( TBH it was both of ours first time dating someone so we had no idea how to act etc. xD ).
and ofc we had our ups and downs in this relationship like every couple has. my downfall in the relationship was where he would ask me A LOT of these: alright so heres my idea we tell each-other 10 things we want the other person to know about ourselves (hobbies and things like that) and then we tell each other 10 things we want in a partner. it can be anything from looks to personality to cooking skills lol
this was not a one time thing where he asked me to make a list. i dont know why but it made me fele a little weird. i mean hey we already started dating and he kept asking me to make lists of stuff about what i look for in a man etc. it was not very fun to do/ come up with ( i mean ive never dated how would i know). but one day we were playing a game we call would you rather and we got to know some interesting things about the other person. then he made a bold move and asked me are you sure you wanna see this? and ofc me being an awesome GF i said yes im sure i wanna see this. and he showed me. i was like freaking out from joy (i think it was joy anyways as u know thats a new feeling) from seeing that. i sent a picture back showing what i thought of it and all seemed well. we were red as hell from this but it was one of the best moments of my life to this day im glad we did this.
of course every couple who still lives with their parents knows what it is to be interrupted by them. demons parents are on a whole nother level. they call him at-least 3 times A HOUR! to ask him for help (his mom has issues and is sick) and not just like oh sweety can you come in and help me for a second. if she did that i would not have mentioned it here. she would YELL yes YELL at him like: GET IN HERE NOW! (and then hangs up) it is not doing him any good since she keeps calling him even when he just got back 5 sec ago she can call again and it is not just pissing demon off. because of this i have less time to spend with the man i love. (for context my demon boyfriend is 21!!) but we keep our heads high and get through it day by day.
we have since been a happy couple (almost 5 months right now WOO!) and every passing day has made us closer together. i am so fortunate to love a man like this. i do not care what his past was or what his looks were. i fell for a beautiful soul and got a pretty man with it. with each passing day our love grows. people always ask: dont you guys ever argue? my responds to that is the only thing we argue over is who loves who more. its silly i know but i truly see myself marrying this man and be with him till the day i die. i love him so much words can not do it justice.
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i would not know what to do without him in my life at the moment. he is my sunshine in the rain. and my kirito to my asuna (SAO reference). my light in the dark. the heart to my life.
if by some miracle he is reading this babe i cant live without you your all i think about daily and every time i look at your pictures i smile so wide it hurts because i love you a lot and i cant wait to see what the future holds for me and you together <3
