A Broken Hearts Misery

The Simpliest Simple Smile

Waking up was trouble. I mean, I figured I'd be excited to see Evelyn today but I have this "feeling" that I should stay asleep. Maybe I was just tired still. Maybe I was still a little hungover or just withdrawing. I don't know what the hell it is but I could feel the emptiness in my stomach just growling to digest something.

  On my way from walking out the door a quick glance at myself through the mirror and I instantly fell happy again, I mean it's not everyday you see a body like mine in only pajama pants. Quickly I ruffled my hair and jogged downstairs towards the kitchen for a good ole' snack.

After about 10 minutes I was eating all the granola bars and dancing to one of my songs in my head all while making my protein shake in flavor cookies and cream with strawberry, sounds better than what it is, I promise.

 In the distance I hear a knock on the door so I glanced at the clock on the wall which read 5:29 A.M. Dang she came early . I chugged the whole protein shake and ran towards the glass colorful door and opened it in my best position where my arm is resting on the door and my body is in front of it showing off my intense muscles. I quickly gave a smile which slowly faded into a fake smile when I realized it was only my hairdresser and stylist crew.

"Heyyy youu" I said sounding a bit surprised trying to sound happy but failing.

"Good to see you !" I gave her a quick punch on the shoulder attempting again to make it seem like I'm happy to see her but instead I get shoved out the way as she walked upstairs to my master bedroom with a "yo" and the crew following her like a choo choo train.

  So I followed to, shoot.

They here for me not anybody else, me , and only me .

  It's been 1 and a half fucking hours and still no sweet Evelyn!

Where the hell is she at I'm about to knock out a crew member cause this is ridiculous !

  I continually walking back and forth across my room trying to ease myself a bit while the stylist stayed on the bed chatting. I look at my phone the time saying 6:39 we should be there by now but I'm not leaving without her.

I feel a gentle squeeze on my arm and suddenly I felt a release "Justin, it's okay she'll be here, sit down." I relaxed my shoulders and sighed as I sat down.

Just like my father I can get too attached too quickly, even so to get a little angry when I'm away from my possession. I heard a knock on the door and I quickly bolted straight up and ran for the door.

   Not thinking at all I forgot to do my position and so I just stood there completely shocked and hesitant and not to mention awkward. Without thinking I snapped into position and seeming that she giggled and smiled I think I did pretty damn good.

  Not noticing when I first opened the door for some idiotic reason. She looked absolutely, completely stunning in her black tennis looking skirt with almost a tuxedo looking top with black heels and perfected looking curls hanging down her back. No need for a stylist she looked amazing.

  I threw myself at her in a quick embrace "Thank you for coming" I whispered and as we parted she whispered "your welcome" I gave a smile I didn't have to force and she gave me the most, simpliest simple smile and that's when I noticed the most attractive most perfect small circled dimple on her right cheek. And boy, I think I fell for her .

  For that quick second cause right after that I felt the whole crew already pushing their way out the door and power walking with their suitcases towards my black range rover.

  Basically that's when I snapped back into action and hopped in the limo . When suddenly le captain hair dresser hopped in the seat beside me:

"No sit on the other side this is Evelyn's seat now"

"But I always sat here"

"Justin, I'm quite comfortable over here." Evelyn's voice came from the distance.

"No, no and no she sits here"

"But-"

"No"

"It's no big deal I mean-"

"This is my limo my rules, switch please, now!" I felt myself getting tense so I gripped the door handle and looked out the window to ease it off a bit.

I felt Capt. Hair dresser shoot daggers at me as I sat there not looking.

In a stuffy we were on our way to the interview and luckily we made it on time as all of us ran in showing our ids to both the guards and anyone in our path.

  Right in time they led Evelyn and I backstage where almost instantly they said my name and I gave Evelyn a quick embrace and as I turned around I heard a "good luck whisper" which was instantly covered up with claps and whispers and a bit of screamers as I walked on stage getting completely blinded by the humongous lights and bright set..

   Being greeted by Joey Edwards was like being greeted by Dr.Phil, that awkward professional handshake and getting pulled in a tight hug.        

"Good Morning, Justin ! Take a seat you'll be here for a long while I promise!"

She gave a huge fake laugh and looked at the crowd for laughter as well, but she was the only one who laughed so she quickly started the interview.

   "So, we heard by an anonymous source that you still continue partying and you are old enough to do so, but what do you say about your younger fans whom look up to you?" She gave a flashing smile at me.

  I thought for a minute gathering up different lies and truths so I decided to say truths, I looked directly to her eyes. 

"Well, to be honest I really appreciate them, I do, I wouldn't be anywhere without the great fan base I have. But I feel as though I am not ready to be considered as a role model just yet. I think people such as your parents or sisters or people you see regularly and actually know in real life should be a role model in their lives I thank them for the compliments though because it does persuade and help me write my songs." A bunch of awes and claps fill the audience I glance behind Joey, Evelyn gives me two thumbs up and a smile.

Feeling confident Joey asks another question

"If you don't believe you are your own role model, who is your role model?"

  I felt the crowd lean in staring at me. I look around looking for an answer, I feel Evelyn looking at me.  This is the point in the music industry that causes for a lie .

  "Uhmm, I'll give that honor to my father who was always the best man I could've ever received." I gave a sheepish grin.

  The audience relaxed some I could tell others called bullshit but as long as I answered I'm good.

  "That's great, I hope he made a big impact on your life"

"Yeah" I continued the same smile only I felt it fade a bit.

  "So, yesterday we had paparazzi going so incredibly crazy because and I quote "saw you with another girl" how do you respond to this? I think this was the most talked about conversation on our list since, a long long time."

  I looked behind Joey again and I see Evelyn digging in the snacks section where she was picking at what I assume is brownies. I smiled bigger.

"Yeah, uhm , I would say that she is a really nice, beautiful girl. " I stared at the audience and back at Joey.
 
  "That's very sweet haven't heard you talk about a girl like that in a long time as well. Is she here with you ?" Joey brought a gigantic smile on her face.
   "Yeah but I don't know if she wants to come on stage right now , she might be shy."
"Will you bring her ?" Joey gave a hopeful glance . I turned to Evelyn which was a bad idea since Joey turned around at the same time I did. Instantly in my head I repeated the only word I could think of
Fuck ! Fuck ! Fuckity Fuck Fuck !

Author's Note:
  I swear it's been such a long time and I didn't think anyone was reading it so I completely stopped. Worst thing I've done by far I'm terribly sorry I will continue writing the rest for the book. I hope more people will give this book a chance.
      ~XoXoGamerGirl