April 21
I start walking towards eli's house, even though she told me to text her to meet her half way, and told her i was outside. i'm having really bad anxiety yet also felt a little confident because i needed some kind of talk to figure out my emotions. I reach her house and she's looking beautiful as always. i don't remember exactly what she was wearing but all i know is that she looks good in anything
We start walking in silence towards a park that will me stuck in my brain as our place. We just walk around the park and then she said we should sit underneath a bridge and i thought i was a little bit of a dumb idea but i don't regret it now.
We sat underneath the bridge on some wack rocks and we talked about life. We laughed at kids running around and we watched birdies taking baths in the creek. I was in a trance that day with her. She spoke and i always wanted to hear her voice. I wanted to grab her face and kiss her but i had to ask and that was psycho. I left that park a changed person with my emotions and heart just wanting this girl
