Y/n's POV
I laid in my bed staring at the ceiling. Thomas had been so busy with video that we barley had any time to spend with each other. I tried making art to pass the time, but I've made all the art I can think of right now. I turned on my side staring at my art tablet. I felt so alone for the first time in a while. I would ask him if we could spend more time together, but I'd know I would be a burden to him. I sat up on the edge of my bed and looked at my closet. I looked and saw a dress that I used to wear when I'd perform. Something in my mind just clicked. I ran to my closet and threw off my Pj's and threw on this dress. I ran to the bathroom and did my hair and make-up lightly. I slipped on some flats before grabbing a bag and my phone. I went downstairs and no one was there. Perfect.
I wrote a note on the fridge that I was going out. Didn't say where. I texted Luna so that they knew where I was, but not to tell Thomas. I exited the house with my confidence on my sleeve and adrenaline flowing through my veins. I made it to this little place that Luna was telling me about and walked in. I signed up for a song. One song. My song. I noticed they had a piano and sighed happily. I hated singing Accapella. I sat down at the bar and ordered an Old fashioned. I usually don't drink, but If I do, it's an Old fashioned. I paid for the drink and sat down awaiting my turn. Finally after a couple of hours, they called me up.
"And next we have Y/n L/n singing an original song!" The guy called out. I heard claps and made my way up to the stage.
"Are you related by chance to Luna L/n?" The guy asked leaning away from the microphone.
"She's my twin sister" I replied making the guy nod. This song meant a lot to me. I wrote it when I was mixed in with a certain crowd and well you'll hear it in a second.
"Hey guys, today I'm singing a song titled 'Unloved'. I hope you like it" I said into the microphone sitting down at the piano. (Again, not my actual song. The song is Unloved by Lisa Cimorelli) I took a nice, deep breath before getting ready to play. I gently let my fingers touch the keys before I started singing.
"My legs are too thick and then they're too small
I'm everything I hate and then I'm nothing at all
I want him to see me, I want him to stay
But if he says he wants me I will push him away" I sang softly into the microphone.
"I skip my dinner, I paint my face
He picks me up, we stay up late
I close the door, I've lost my way
So I drown myself in pain" I sang getting a little more confident.
"The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs
I push it down, I lock it up
So many ways to waste my time
I use it all it all to dry up the flood
It's only 'cos I wanna feel loved
I feel so unloved" I sang with power lacing in my voice. They clapped and cheered for me. I thought of Thomas and I felt a little choked up.
"I search for a high, a way to get by
They'll judge no matter what so I don't really mind
I'm never enough so I act like I'm tough
But on the inside, I just wanna cry
I weigh myself, I stuff my face
I'm half alive, I'm so ashamed
I kiss him once, I feel nothing
So I do it all again" I sang powerfully making some people whistle. I felt a couple of tears slip down my face. I wiped them away quickly before playing again.
"The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs
I push it down, I lock it up
So many ways to waste my time
I use it all it all to dry up the flood
It's only 'cos I wanna feel loved
I feel so unloved
They judge me like we're not the same
At least I know, I'm in this game
We run, we hide, we feel, we cry
You can't deny, you feel the pain
Distractions won't take it away" I sang letting more tears fall from my eyes. I felt so much emotion flowing through me. It was like I was on Broadway. Thankfully, I could still hit those notes while getting choked up.
" The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs
I push it down, I lock it up
So many ways to waste my time
I use it all it all to dry up the flood
It's only 'cos I wanna feel loved
Yeah, I feel so unloved" I sang started off softly before getting louder and matching the pitch perfectly. I finished off and breathed out deeply seeing them all standing and cheering for me. I smiled, sniffling softly.
"Wow, that was beautiful! So much passion and emotion! Give it up for Y/n L/n!" The guy called out as I waved before making my way off stage. I got a few compliments before going and taking my seat at the bar. I felt someone sit next to me.
"That was beautiful, Y/n" I heard Thomas tell me. I turned and he had on a suit and white roses in his hands. I gasped.
"What are you doing here?" I asked standing up and taking the flowers.
"I came to apologize. I'm really sorry I've been so busy lately and I know how neglected you've felt. I didn't know how much it had been affecting you, and I'm sorry" Thomas told me sadly.
"It's fine. I know your job is important Thomas. I don't want to get in the way of your career" I told him.
"That's just it. You could never get in the way. It's not fine. I promise from now on to make time for us" Thomas told me reaching forward and grabbing both of my hands. I gave him a little smile.
"I forgive you. Who told you I was fe- Cherry" I finished sitting down on the stool again.
"Actually, it was Noah. She told me how anxious you felt about well everything and Cherry did add in some feelings" Thomas explained taking a seat next to me. I nodded taking a sip of my drink.
"You were... breath taking up there, Y/n. The emotion you put in to the song was amazing. It even made me tear up" Thomas told me.
"Thank Tommy. I just needed to blow off some steam I guess." I replied finishing off my drink.
"Come on. Let's get out of here." I told Thomas, grabbing his hand as we left the little joint. We talked about random things on the way home before we got to the front door.
"How did you know where I was?" I asked.
"Luna told me" He replied.
"Of course" I said softly.
"Question: Does this count as a second date?" Thomas asked making me giggle.
"Sure, why not" I replied smiling.
"Great. Then you won't mind this" Thomas told me making me look at him before he wrapped his arms around me waist before kissing me gently. I was a little shocked at first before kissing back. I reached up and put two hands on his cheeks as his grip on my waist tightened a little more. It was the perfect moment. We pulled away and leaned our foreheads on each other.
"That was smooth, sanders" I told him making him laugh. I kissed his once more before we went inside.
"Y/n L/n! How dare you leave without telling us where you went!" Cherry yelled scolding me as the smile dropped off my face.
"I'm sorry, cher. I told Luna!" I replied pointing at the girl on the floor next to Roman. She made a 'tsk' noise before holding back a smile.
"Did you have fun though?" Cherry asked taking me from Thomas. I looked at him with a nervous smile before waving. He laughed and waved back.
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Fanfiction((Just letting you know! every character in this book uses they/she pronouns! It makes me more comfortable like that, BUT They are all non-binary! Just letting you know!!) Y/N had been Best friends with Thomas Sanders for years and years on end. Lit...
