All I Need

十

All day Namjoon was able to avoid the serious talk the members wanted to have, since everyone was busy. Now they are all back at the dorm eating dinner.

Namjoon didn't focus on the calories for once and decided to enjoy Jin's cooking. He wouldn't need to focus on his weight after today. He won't need to focus on anything.

Namjoon smiled and laughed with the members during the meal.

He made sure to remember the moment they were sharing.

Everyone was smiling and laughing. Everyone looked happy.

Namjoon was happy he was able to see this moment before he was gone.

He was grateful for it.

After the meal was done, Namjoon helped clean up. The members began to go their ways to get ready for bed, except Namjoon. Namjoon put his phone in his pocket. He put his shoes on and called out to the members.

"I'll be back! I'm gonna go pick up something from the convenience store!"

Jungkook came over to where Namjoon was and gave him a smile.

"Don't take too long hyung!"

Namjoon smiled.

"I won't."

With that, he left.

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Namjoon strolled down the streets with his usual black cap and mask on.

Even though he was gonna die, it would be a hassle to have to fight off a mob before it. He wanted a nice and peaceful walk before he died.

He walked till he arrived at Han River.

He made his way to the bridge where there was not a lot of people. Everyone was next to the river hanging out and laughing. Namjoon leaned against the railing and closed his eyes.

He listened to the distant voices of people and their laughter. He listened to the water, and he listened to the cars behind him.

He smiled.

When you close your eyes and listen, the world can be so peaceful and beautiful, until you open them and see the silent pain that people suffer.

Namjoon put his headphones in and turned on his playlist. He texted his parents his final good byes, and then started his message to the members.

Hey guys...

I have so much to say, but I can't find the right words...

I actually overheard your conversation last night...

You all must be so stressed dealing with me. Don't worry! I've found a great solution to resolve the problem! Since I am the issue, I will get rid of it.

I hope you guys know how much I love you guys. I know it's weird to say that, but I mean it.

You guys aren't just my band members or friends, you guys are my family. My brothers.

I'll miss you all, but know I'll be happier where I am going, as will you guys.

It's better if the problem never existed.

Don't focus too much on me when I'm gone. Chase your dreams and accomplish them together.

Thank you for everything.

-Namjoon

Namjoon his send and smiled.

There was so much to say, but there was so little time.

He put his phone in his pocket and made sure to turn up the volume of his music.

He let out a breath before he began to swing his leg over the side of the railing. He then got his entire body over to the other side and faced the river.

He took a deep breath and stared at the river below him.

The water looked intimidating, but he closed his eyes and took deep breaths.

He listened to the loud music coming from his headphones.

You can do it.

He let go of the railing and started to lean forward.