Missing You:'(

I was sleeping in the living room on the floor and my mom was on the couch sleeping. The night before she wanted me and my dad to watch a movie with her, The Blind Side, and my dad and I refused and fell asleep. The next morning I hear her snoring on the couch and she says "ouch" a few times. And I think she said my name once too. I reply but she does not. I go to the bathroom and she isn't snoring I didn't know that she wasn't breathing and I feel like I could have done something. i thought she was just no longer snoring.I then ask my dad when dinner is gonna start being made. He then get up to wake my mom up. He goes "come on Lisa lets start the dinner." but she does not move. He tries again and again my this time tears are threatening to brake through. And then my dad tells me to go across the street to my moms best friend Audry so I tryto find shoes but I can't. I don't even think I grabed a coat. I think I grab a small blanket. It's snowy then and I walk across the street bare footed and I don't feel any thing. I think I'm just numb. Once I get there she goes, what's the matter? And I go "my mom won't wake up." and I loose it then and I just start bawling. After about five minutes my dad comes over and calls 911. I guess our phone wasn't working. He goes back over and waits for the paramedics. I then am on my neighbors couch and I'm bawling. She comes in the living room and I then ask her "is my mom dead?" and she says "I sure hope not. I sure hope not." and I start crying even harder. Then people start coming over. First it was my sister Chanel and then my uncle Roy comes over. Then it is my great cousins Donna, Robert And Sherri. I run to them and I cry for what seems like forever. Then Donna tells me that her mom also died but it was the day after thanks giving a few years back. I was then didn't feel too alone my mom was my best friend and I told her everything. My dad then came My friends mom who lives down the street came down and she had lost her husband a few months before. And I cried in he arms for the longest time. Then I am offered to my friends house for dinner and I accepted it. I ended up staying there for two weeks not wanting to go home. My dad was already an alcoholic and his drinking just got worse. I still feel as if it's my fault. I could have told my dad she stopped snoring, or tried to wake her up or something that could have stopped it. But I now live with my cousins in Longveiw now. the ones I mentioned earlier. And my dad lives in Vancouver, Washington now and we did live in Kelso, Washington.

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hey this suprizingly didn't take to long for me to write. I has to stop a few times but that's all.