Random thoughts....

My best friend

My best friend...
She knows me so well...
She knows everything about me.
She feels my pain...
laughs at my jokes...
Cried my tears and stays with me when I am alone...

She talks to me when I don't have anyone to talk to...
We talk all day and I am used to having her around...
She has never left me and has always been my biggest support.
She knows all my secrets and I know she will never tell anyone about me...
She never bitches behind me...
She never makes me cry...
My best friend...

She was with me when I was crying alone and everyone was busy and had no time for me...
I had secrets which I couldn't tell anyone and she was the only one I could tell because I trusted her to not tell anyone...
I talk to her about my interests which no one took time to listen...
I had dreams which no one had time to fulfil...
I wanted a life which only she knew I wanted...
I am not a fighter.. but she gives me the strength to stand for myself...

What would I do without you, my friend ..
What would I do if you were not in my mind...
You are as real to me as my own existence..
We talk to eachother and you totally understand me..
You are always there in my mind when I really want to talk to ...

But I am sorry you are a prisoner in my mind cause there is no way I can ever let you go...
If you leave me I will forever be alone...
I look at you in the mirror and can never meet your eyes...
I know for sure, you will ask me why?
Why I need you?
I can't answer you that...
I can't tell anything that you don't already know...
I want you, cause you are the only one who lives with all my secrets, demons and pain and still accepts me and stands with me when no one cares...
You are my best friend cause who can ever understand me but me....

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It is not untill
the middle of the night
that I know loneliness
is simply the blood that
never bled out....

It is knowing you
Could have but
you are still
Going without...