Dear Percy,

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Trigger Warning: Self-hate

This is a letter to Percy written by Nico. Sort of like To All the Boys I've Loved Before by Jenny Han. -blue

Nico POV

Dear Percy,

I've never...

I...

I've never felt so strongly for someone.

I hate it.

I hate you...

No, I don't.

I want to hate you, but I can't.

Gods, I hate myself.

I'm supposed to hate you! You're the reason Bianca is dead! And I need to hate you for it, but I can't... And instead, I love you.

There. I said it. Happy?

I hate myself so much.

I hate myself for loving you.

I hate myself for loving the person that got my sister killed.

I hate myself for loving the person that got the only good thing in my life killed.

You promised Percy! You were supposed to protect her!

Gods! Why are you so perfect? You're freaking fatal flaw is loyalty!

I'm such a monster. I love the person who is the reason Bianca is dead.

Well, I guess it's not your fault. I don't even blame you, anymore! I just felt like I had to blame you.

Stupid, isn't it?

I'm sorry, Percy.

I...

I can't...

I love you, Percy Jackson.

There I said it.

I love you Percy Jackson, and I hate myself.

Love,

No, I can't.

- Nico

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