Falling For The Slayers Enemy| BTVS Spike FF

Problems

*Sam's P.O.V.*

Ever since what went down with Spike and I we have been avoiding each other for weeks. I felt lonely but it happened, it was my fault and what could solve it? Nothing. I sat on my bed thinking back to everything, the guilt clouded me and I felt nothing anymore. I was in another depression state, and Spike went through my mind, he may not have felt anything over this but I did. Tears streamed down my face with all the thoughts that ran through my mind, I didn't hear the footsteps coming up the stairs. I continued to cry until I hear a familiar "Sam?" I looked up with my tearful eyes to see Spike looking at me in shock. 

I looked away trying to wipe the tears away like it was nothing, Spike frowned and walked into my room "I-I can come in right?" "I guess..." I whimpered. Spike sighed in relief and he sat next to me on my bed "What's wrong, love?" the same tingle I always felt when he would call me that ran through me. I bit my lip and looked at him "I um... its nothing" "Don't lie to me" he said with a serious voice. I frowned "I don't know how to say and what to say" "Try your best like you always do" "I feel terrible" "Physically or-" "Its guilt you dumb ass!" I yelled and hid in the corner of my bed crying again "S-Sam I-" he tried to reach out to me. Hesitating Spike rubbed my arm "I'm not mad at you" he said forcefully. I scoffed "That was so fake!" Spike growled "Dammit" "Don't lie" I mocked. 

Spike sighed "Fine, I'm slightly mad you cheated with Josh even though he was stalking you" "I had no other option" I muttered "Yes you did" he hissed. I squeaked in fear "I won't hurt you... I just... I'm pissed off that all this went down... he got what he wanted" Spike scowled "Your supposed to be mine... all mine" "I can say the same thing" I said folding my arms. Spike rolled his eyes "What happened with Buffy is over alright?" I sighed in relief "Your not lying?" "I wouldn't lie to you" he told me getting closer to me. I looked at him "I feel bad Spike..." "In what way?" he asked tilting his head "I don't know... I just... feel like your judging me or something" "No, revenge is a dish served with reason" he said shrugging "Want a hug?" he asked me. I nodded and he sat in front of me and gave me a hug, letting me cry into his arms I fell asleep.