No Regrets

I Love You

Yeah ok this is my first time writing a story on here so like don't come for me or anything, or like do come for me idk idc really. This is basically set at AJ's house and Nathan is pissed bc she has a career and all he does is sell $128 joggers. This is obviously very fantasized and based off the many divorcée convos from grey's. Ummm yes this is smut but it's not tHat aggressive.
AJ: hey nate can you watch the kids tonight? We have some last minute filming for CM.
N: I mean yeah I can but I just wish you would think more about my time before you just assume that I always wanna stay home with the kids. I'm getting really fed up with you always leaving .
AJ: Are you complaining about watching YOUR kids? Are you complaining about the fact that I have a stable career and you don't? Can you please not try and pick a fight right now?
N: IM NOT TRYING TO PICK A FIGHT BUT YOU ARE ALWAYS GONE. LITERALLY YOU ARE NEVER HOME
AJ: THAT IS NOT TRUE AND YOU KNOW IT. I WORK TO SUPPORT OUR FAMILY. I WORK BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND THE KIDS.
N: I AM SO TIRED OF YOUR EXCUSES. I AM A MAN AND I SHOULD BE THE ONE SUPPORTING THE FAMILY, NOT YOU.
AJ: I'm sorry what? I know that you did not just say that. Get your misogynistic ass out of here. Leave my house now. What is this? The 1950s?
N: babe I'm sorry I didn't mean it please I'm just stressed out right now.
AJ: GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW YOU UNGRATEFUL ASSHOLE
Nathan left, slamming the door behind him. AJ began to cry feeling overwhelmed. She didn't know what to do now. She didn't know if her marriage was over or if the damage could be repaired. She was now sobbing at this point when her kids came down the stairs looking confused and distraught. "What's wrong mommy?" Mekhai slowly asked. "Why were you and daddy screaming?" "Nothing is wrong, daddy just had to leave for a little bit." AJ had to lie to protect their sons from the pain. It was now 8:30, so she told them to go to bed and she gave them kisses on the forehead. "Goodnight. I love you guys so much." She headed back downstairs to the kitchen and opened a bottle of wine hoping to drink the pain away. She felt more alone than she had ever felt. She picked up her phone and quickly called Paget.
AJ: hey can you come over please? She quickly said this while holding back tears but Paget knew something was wrong.
P: yeah I'm coming now. Be there in 15.
AJ: bye
P: bye
15 minutes later AJ heard a knock at the door, she opened it and was greeted with Paget's smiling face. It was clear to Paget that AJ had been crying.
P: oh honey what's wrong?
AJ: Nathan and I had a fight and I told him to leave. I am terrified of the thought that I have fucked up everything and I'm scared Paget.
AJ began to cry again as Paget hugged her tight. They sat down on the couch and AJ laid on Paget's shoulder. AJ offered her some wine and Paget happily obliged. Paget was doing everything that she possibly could to distract AJ from the fight. They continued to  talk aimlessly.
AJ: ok let's talk about you
P: what are you so desperate to know? Paget let out a small chuckle
AJ: where did you grow up? You never talked about that
P: I grew up in Massachusetts. Not that exciting. But you lived in Canada. Tell me about that.
AJ: we were supposed to be talking about you but ok. I grew up in a small town in Canada and when I say that everyone knew everyone, I mean it. AJ let out a small smile. I grew up Mormon and there were never any secrets where I came from, but that always was hard because I could never fully live my life.
P: wait what do you mean?
AJ: I just had some secrets and I wanted to be able to tell someone, but I was afraid of judgement. To be completely honest, I still am.
P: come on AJ, you can tell me. You can trust me.
AJ: I need you to promise me that you will not look at me any different.
P: oh come on AJ you are my best friend I will always love you no matter what. Paget smiled at AJ
AJ: when I was younger, like around 13, I met this girl who I just thought was so beautiful. I admired her and we were best friends. She was literally all I could think about. I was scared of how I felt. I didn't know who to tell so I just told her. When I told her that I loved her. Like really loved her, she just smiled at me and kissed me. That kiss was the most magical thing that I had ever experienced. It was nothing short of amazing. I was scared of my parents finding out that I had fallen in love with girl, let alone kissed her. I pushed the feelings I had so far down that I started to push my friend away. I didn't know what to do and you are literally the only person I have told that to. AJ wiped the tears that were pouring down her face. Paget was sitting there, speechless. She just hugged AJ.
P: oh my god AJ I'm so sorry that you went through that. Honey it's gonna be ok.
AJ: i have been confused about my sexuality since then. Then I met Nathan and he was so charming. He was such a sweet guy and I love him. But it was just never the same love I had for her. I've been sitting here thinking about everything that has happened today and I keep going over everything in my head. I don't think I'm sad because our relationship might be over. I'm sad because this could tremendously affect the kids. The pain I have isn't over losing him, it's over damaging the kids. I don't think I love him Paget. Oh my god I don't think I love him at all.
P: AJ are you sure about this? I'm not going to tell you that you are wrong if you are sure.
AJ: it's like I love him but it has never been a husband love, it has always been a friendship love. You know what I mean? I was sitting here racking my brain over it and I don't hate him, but I don't want to be his wife forever.
P: is there someone else that you love? Like is that the reason that you don't wanna be with him? Do you think that there is someone else involved that is pushing Nathan out of the picture. Someone who has opened your eyes?
AJ: yeah I think there is someone actually.
P: who?
AJ looked at Paget and said " I love you". Paget looked at her and with shock in her voice she said "What?" AJ looked at her with all of the confidence in the world and said "Ever since you came to work on CM I had always admired you and your beauty." Paget was happy to hear this because she had secretly had a crush on AJ when she first came to the show but never thought she had a chance. AJ and Paget looked at each other for a couple of seconds as they just admired each other's beauty. AJ leaned in and kissed Paget with more passion than she had ever had before. Paget bit AJ's lip and AJ griped Paget's face. They continued to make out as they laid on the couch and AJ started to rub Paget's leg. Paget let out a moan. AJ began to take her shirt off and kissed Paget's neck. Paget flipped AJ over and started to kiss her stomach and slowly making her way down to AJ's pants. Paget ripped them off and AJ moaned so loud she scared herself.
AJ: Oh my god Paget yes GODDDDD
P: yeah you like that Paget said this as she began to finger AJ
AJ: OH FUCK AJ immediately thought about the kids and tried to calm herself but it was impossible.
Paget knew what AJ wanted and AJ was wetter with each thrust. AJ quickly turned Paget over and made her squirt harder than she ever had before. They began to passionately kiss once more until they had both came again. They didn't care that they had missed work. They were together and that was all that mattered. AJ laid on Paget's chest and fell asleep.