Story Version to the song Moments by One Direction

Moments

I want to shut the door, to block out anybody who doesn't understand, I want to turn the lights off, so that I don't have to know that you're not here. I want you here, I want to feel your love, to feel the warmth you brought me. I want you to be here lying down beside me like you used to, staring up at me with your big green eyes. I cannot hide the hurt and the depression I feel, even though I've tried, and I have tried. My heart is racing, I realise that I've moved, I don't know how long I've been standing here, the time keeps slipping by me. Touching my heart, I try to find purpose and all I can think of is you. But thinking of you makes this harder, it's only then that I realise that I'm crying , the tears are streaming down my face. If we could only have this life for one more day would you come back to me, if we could only turn back time I'll be there for you, I'll love you more than before. I'll be your reason to be here. My love and my heart were always there for you. I'm breathing for this moment and I know I'll find the words to say before you leave me today. I want to close the door and throw the key. I don't want to be reminded of what happened, I don't want to be without you in this world , my judgement on this subject is clouded as is tonight's sky, is there anything I wouldn't do for you? My mind is in a jumbled mess, my hands are silent and my voice has gone numb. I try to scream, to shout but my thoughts shift back to you and it makes this harder to do. With tears still streaming down my face, I know that if I could, I would stay with you for eternity and longer. I remember thinking that if I could turn back time I would love you more, however I don't think I could love you more than I do now, I would protect you better and try my hardest to make you happier. I'd be your voice and your reason to be here, I'd make you never want to leave. Images flash before my eyes but not the ones I want to see, I want to see images of you being happy and lively, but instead I see ones of me playing football when I was younger in the street with my friends, laughing. Completely oblivious to my dark future. My toes are numb as I stand closer to the edge and I remember the clothes I left at your house, at the end of your bed, ready for the next day, the next day that didn't come for you. Due to the panic and heartbreak of the situation I forgot about them. This seems like a weird time to remember, weird but ironic. I don't remember moving but I feel myself falling and I think "wow I really have fallen for you" my attempt of a joke failed as I thought of your face and kept it in my mind for my final seconds. I thought I would know what to say when you went but I didn't, now as I go I still don't know what to say except "I love you" with your face in my mind and those three words that I never said to you, I let the blackness take my mind and I was gone.