Love can be fatal.....

Chapter one- I did it again......

       Ishtar's pov:
   
"Mother?" I shout as I wanted through the house. We only had a small cottage, but I loved it. It was where I loved to be when I felt low. "Mother! Where are you?!" I walk into the main room, only to find her sprawled out on the ground,lying in a puddle of blood. "Mother!!!" I run over to her and kneel beside her. " Mom!!! Please....answer me! " Her face is pale,her limbs limp by her sides. "Mom!!!" I touch her cheek, feeling only coldness. "Nononononono no!! This is a dream wake up!!!"  I scream at myself,pulling at my hair and lowering my head. Tears stream down my face,and I begin to stand up,head still lowered. "I did it......yet again....I did this...to her....and my father.....and....my brother......is gone.....forever......" I run from the room, grab my sword and toss it into the fire. Then, as fast as I can, I run.
                       
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     I wake up,covered in sweat. "James!!!" I shout as I get up and run out of the room. " JAMES!!! " I close my eyes,feeling only sorrow and tears come to my eyes. As I run I hit someone or something,and fall back. "ISHTAR!!!" He shouts grabbing my hand and helping me up. " Are you okay sis?! " he looks at me in an apologetic way. "James!!!" I run over and hugs him,crying my eyes out. "I dreamed it again!! But this time it felt like it was real!!! I'm so scared James what do I do?!?!" He grabs my shoulders and has me look at him, his expression cold and serious. " Ishtar,you HAVE to tell mom! " "But she won't believe me! You know what she thinks about me!" " Ishtar..... " he rolls his eyes,obviously annoyed. "I can't do anything about it. You either tell mom or just forget it." He walks away, leaving me in the big hall of the castle. Me and my brother have always been close, but when I talk about this kind of thing,he gets mad and leaves me. Why?! I don't know.... My thoughts become interrupted as I hear the maids come into the hallway. "Princess!" One of them says, running to me and ushering me back to my room. "We must get you ready! Today's the big day!" As I walk, I wonder what big day? What does that even mean? I stand patiently as they clean me and dress me with my favorite blue dress. They put my crown on my head, a golden piece with a bright blue gem in the middle of it. As they fuss over me,I think about what to tell my mother. Surely a queen doesn't have time to deal with dreams, I think to myself. Finally,the butler walks in and leads me to my mother's office,closing the door as he leaves. Uh oh. My mother turns to face me. "Ishtar,my child,would you please have a seat?" She points to a lacey velvet chair and I sit down. " You are now seventeen,and being an adult brings big responsibility. As the soon to be queen,you have a role to play- to love your people and produce an heir worthy of the royal family. "  I gulp at that comment. "If you are to have a healthy child,you must have a husband of the royal family." She looks at me to see the shocked expression on my face, but continues. "Your father and I have chosen the best husband for you,and we expect all cooperation on your part to help make this happen. My dear.....you will marry Prince Darres of the Flemish kingdom....tommorrow." I stand up suddenly, tears streaming down my face. " N-no! How could you! I am not marrying anyone and I sure as fuck am not going to cooperate with you!!! " I run out of the room,followed by my mother's angry shouts. "Ishtar! Come back this moment!" I continue running, out the castle doors and through the garden,bringing along some clothes I found in the armory. I go to the warehouse,change into the shorts and jacket and run as far as I can, into the city.