Different Sides to Every Story (Sanders sides)

Thomas

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Y/n's POV

"Are you ready?" I asked sitting cross legged across from Thomas. He nodded before holding out his fist. I held out mine.

"Rock, paper, scissors, shoot!" We shouted. I held out rock and he had paper.

"Damn. Alright I go first" I replied taking a deep breath.

"Ask away" I told him.

"What made you feel unwanted?" He asked. I sighed again.

"I've felt unwanted my entire life, so when I am brought into a house full of love and kindness I feel like there is this false sense of security. No matter who I am with or where I am there is always that feeling" I explained as he nodded.

"I'm sorry your parent's were awful" He told me reaching forward and grabbing my hand.

"It's alright. Your mom is pretty great" I replied making him laugh.

"Alright, your turn. Ask me anything" He told me as I had to think about it for a second.

"Why do you still feel bad about ignoring me? I told you it was okay" I asked as he sighed this time.

"I still feel guilty about it because I really love you. I mean, not only do I love you, you're my best friend, and to have you not in my life would seriously... suck. I didn't want to mess that up and I almost did" He explained not meeting my eyes.

"Aw, Tommy. I know your intentions were never to ignore me. You just got caught up in some work. It's alright. I still forgive you" I told him squeezing his hand.

"Are you sure? Because I-" I cut him off by kissing him gently on the lips. I pulled away and he looked a little shocked making me giggle.

"I am sure" I told him firmly.

"Okay, my turn" I brought up sitting back down in my spot.

"Hmm. Oh! What makes you think you are going to end up like your parents?" He asked.

"The thing that made me think about it more was when Luna mentioned it a while ago. It really hurt even though I know those weren't her intentions and she was just playing a role, but it got me thinking. There is a chance I could end up like my parent's and I just don't know it yet. It honestly scares me to think about it because I don't want to make people feel the way that they made me feel." I explained playing with my fingers.

"Aw, I am absolutly 100% sure that you will never end up like your parent's. From all the time I've known you, you've been nothing but kind and sweet" Thomas reassured me making me smile wide.

"Thank you, that really does mean a lot to me" I told him.

"Of course. Alright, now it's my turn" He continued.

"Okay, why didn't you tell me that the Deceit situation was bothering you so much?" I asked.

"Ooh, that's a good one. I- um I didn't want to add my problem to the list of problems you were already facing. You just discovered you have Insecurity and I didn't want to make you worry about me more than you already do" He replied making me nod.

"You can come to me with anything, because honestly, it takes my mind off my problems for a while. Anything to distract me from that is okay by me. Also, it is my job to worry about you more than normal." I replied making him smile.

"Thank you, that does help" He told me squeezing my hand.

"Of course! Now, one more question" I told him.

"Okay, but you don't have to answer it" He started.

"Shoot" I replied.

"Why are you so reluctant to talk about your ex-girlfriend?" Thomas asked making me freeze a little.

"I really need to get this off my chest, because I really haven't told anyone, so, nobody else knows, but her and a couple of people including Gabbie" I rambled. He nodded giving my hand a squeeze. I took a big breath before starting.

"Her name was Harlee. I thought she was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. She had a beautiful personality, she made me laugh, and I fell in love with her. We started dating and we were friends with this guy named Nick. Nick was also attracted to Harlee so when he found out that we were dating, he was not happy. He started touching and hugging her more so she talked to me about it. I found Nick after school and told him about it. We were in this really sketchy place at the school where no teachers were so I was already on edge, but I loved her so I did this for her" I explained barley taking any breaths.

"Breathe, okay? Breathe" Thomas told me until I was breathing normally. I started again.

"I told him to stop hugging her because she said it made her uncomfortable. He was really defensive about it, told me I was lying, starting saying stuff how she doesn't really love me or whatever. Then he punched me right in the cheek. I was shocked. He told me something that would make me have nightmares. 'I will make your life a living hell' and it still scares me to this day. The next day I told her about it and she dropped him as a friend. He then messages me saying something that I don't remember so I tell him to f-off and I blocked him. We were going good. Everything was fine until.." I trailed off taking some breathes.

"Until some people messaged Harlee saying that I was lying. She was saying stuff like 'how could you do this' and 'you know I have trust issues what is wrong with you' and I sent her back a ton of messages saying how they're lying or whatever. I went to my aunt crying and I told her what happened. This was the time I had one of my worst panic attacks. I didn't eat, or sleep, or go outside for so long. I felt alone. It really sucked" I explained before feeling a tear drip onto my arm. I touched my face and didn't even notice I was crying until now.

"And that's part of why I have severe trust issues, and why I don't like bringing her up" I finished hugging my self. Thomas reached forward and hugged me tight. (P.s. Based on a half true story. She was not my girlfriend, but this did happen)

"I am so sorry she didn't believe you. She is really missing out. I'm also sorry you got punched from standing up for her." Thomas told me.

"It's okay. It's not your fault. It's in the past now, I just... needed to vent it to someone cause I keep getting these flashes of memories from that time. It was the first time I had been punched so it sucked a lot. I was terrified for a long time until I met you and I felt better. I felt like I wasn't alone anymore" I explained wiping away the tears from under my eyes.

"Aw, Y/n. That is very sweet. I'm sorry you went though that, though" Thomas told me resting a hand on the side of my face.

"It's alright. I've got you and the rest of the sides to keep me company so I truly do think I'm getting better" I explained smiling at him.

"That's great. I'm really proud of you" Thomas told me skimming his thumb on my cheek. I smiled up at him. He reached down at pecked my lips once.

"You know what always make me feel batter after a good venting sesh?" I asked sitting on my knees.

"What?" Thomas asked.

"Cuddling and watching movies" I told him making him laugh.

"Very true, very true" He replied though laughter. We laid down and I cuddled up to him immediately feeling like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I rested my head on his chest listening to his calming heart beat as his arm wrapped around me. I rested a hand on his chest and he picked something for us to watch. I felt like I could stay in bed all day with him and not move.